Monday morning....

Not a great one---stomach cramps are pretty strong---so are feelings about what to do about them. Still have not set up a date for a colonoscopy. What am I waiting for? Still have not reached out to a few people who could help me get through it. Do I think it will just go away and things will revert to how they were (easy) a year ago/ Not much of  a chance. So what am I doing? Just waiting, even if the signs might be stronger that cityboy should find out "the truth" re what is happening.
Weekend highlights: Two encounters with Friends graduates, both happy to see me, with some good conversations going on. Feel very valuable and meaningful when these things happen. Also two productive sessions on Saturday--feeling good about that as well.
   Rest of Saturday was rest. Body felt very tired---perhaps after two focused days on Thursday and Friday-- both ended up with cityboy staying out late (but is not that as it should be?)--maybe the fatigue was justified, as the evening went on, felt better---Sunday morning awoke with all my energy returned--ready for a "free" day in Brooklyn. And that is what happened. Took the M to Flushing Avenue on the Bushwick=Bed-Stuy border, then walked the grid of Bushwick via Jefferson Avenue, something I had never done before. Interesting walk--hispanic neighborhood still very much in existence, but lots of new or redone buildings for the "newer" tenants. Welcomed at Cobra Club and stayed there for a time watching the Yankee game, then walked over to DeKalb and took the bus into downtown Brooklyn, where I stopped at the "sight" opposite the Harvey theater that has a bar and coffee and food. Always feel comfortable at that place--remained there for a while, then walked a bit, then visited the fiction bookstore, where I accidentally bumped into Simon, the Friends graduate. and had a nice talk with him. Then home, for I was tired.
  Today, not as strong as I might like. Not sure what the evening will bring---must create or visit some form of entertainment, no matter how tired I am. Did not sleep well last night---lots of feelings about possible colonoscopy and also why that seems to be so difficult.
  Interesting idea for a short play---two cousins in their late sixties,early seventies, one a successful realtor who believes in his own strength and vision and the other, a leader of an anti gentrification group. They were close as teen agers, even early twenties before they went their separate ways. The realtor, who believes in his own power, summons his rebel cousin to ask him to stop making anti-realtor statements. Tries to bribe him? A power struggle. Well, let's see if it can be developed. Cityboy understands that roads to him for power---not in education---were open to him if he so wanted when younger. How to two people raised the same way turn out to have such different visions of life, and where does one have the entitlement to destroy the other?  Interesting? Well let's see.
  All for now, will probably report tomorrow.