wild and wooly....

rough night last night----began with that strange incident at La Flaca---some strange guy put me down, and practically ordered me out---Bob was fine taking care of it----but still, can't remember any time in my years of bar sitting that this has happened---left feeling confused and a little scared, though the guy was probably drunk and helpless, he probably does not even remember what he did...nevertheless upsetting....then a hard night, tough time sleeping, getting up and opening the window to break the overwhelming heat---then closing it again, then sleeping a lot this morning. The vacation is weighining on me----too much time to deal with things, will be happy when Friends reopens Monday. Hopefully rest of the week will be more workable, quite a few things planned, tomorrow particularly, the Albee play at Signature and then trivia at South Fourth, should be meaningful fun---after that, other things to the vacation's end. Tonight still up in the air, how cold will it remain...? Probably head to South Fourth for movie, but depends on how I feel---stomach a bit weird this morning---after this head to 145 street to work with Jarenhi (I am sure I have not spelled it right) after that.....

so yesterday.....

went to the "action" in Fort Greene park; looked for FUREE, could not find it---talked to some people, not a lot of warmth, but didn't matter----participated in health care teach in, and was invited to a candlelight vigil on Thursday to prevent consolidation of city hospitals, thus endangering nearbye communities. Will probably go; feel I should lend my support---still, last night and early this morning such a split in my feelings----would really like others to do this; was this what I was "brought up" to do. Strange kind of split, can't reconcile this with my enjoyment or perhaps you might call it "passion" for the arts. The two seem totally separate. Not much else this weekend, because of the Fort Greene visit, was too tired to visit East River or Sweetwater or anywhere else. A long vacation---one more week---lots of emotional space--not too sure about tonight or tomorrow, maybe some new places, we'll see.

quite a night....

and day, yesterday, first that incredible performance of Hurt Village---truly amazing, a great cast---watch out for Corey Hawkins---I think he is on his way! Other are great too! Last evening a party for Paul, with Trivia, a lot happened, kind of excited about it this morning---feel different-tonight will make the "rounds" begin at La Flaca, then maybe visit Lana at 2A (a first there) and finally stop in to visit Patrick at Reservoir. Lots of time---with no work to think about and no phone calls to expect, have gotten in later---still not very tired---weekend kind of vague, hope that the weather is good enough Sunday for events in Fort Greene Park. Strange feeling for these two weeks----a kind of floating experience---the air is free. Weather of course, great, but what does that augur for the future---this is a kind of too good to be true experience; am suspicious that there might be more extreme weather in our future, perhaps not so good. Anyway, we will see.....continue....

not so slow week.....

this week...actually worked four days, pretty exhausted by day 4, A good week, however. Now, two weeks off, good! Don't have to think about the possibility of work in the morning...later at night.....? We'll see. Today walked into the Bronx after tutoring, still haunted by that place, the streets, the houses, how to deal with the different feelings, tensions, etc. Returning now to Manhattan, tonight see the play at, of all places, the Lexington Hotel. Who would have thought of seeing a play at Lexington and 47street....still it is happening....theater is everywhere...no stopping it...maybe more later, will do more browsing,,,,,

a slow week...

at Friends, only one day of work, however, atleast three this week, and tutoring is on the rise. Alot to handle. Strange evening yesterday, returned from first tutoring session with Brian, a feisty sixth grader having trouble with math. Stopped off at Columbia Pizza, 111 street, and returned home, very tired. Slept for two hours, then read endlessly Adrian LeBlanc's book Random Families. Second time around, was shocked at being drawn into this brutal world, always more troubling because many of the moments take place in a Bronx that as a child I felt safe in. Still haunted by that change...visit there again.....? Woke up feeling what.....frigntened, overwhelmed, as if I had absorbed all the violence in the book....anyway, back at the library, another tutoring session at 1:30, wonder if I will see Khovanchina tonight, really the only time to go, other options.....? well, you know what they are. Great game of trivia Wednesday evening, hope I can make the next one, work on Wednesday, but will give it my best shot...we'll see.