A week without writing.....why?

 Can't answer that question----this passage that i am moving through I guess does not stimulate me to write. What can I write anyway? It is either what is happening to me with the "disease" and its follow up or some long ago memories. Maybe just neither seems fitting at the time. But the Ostomy bags seem to be driving me crazy---I lose a lot of sleep working on them. Right now "itchy"---it is around six and I have just returned from the grocery store four blocks away where I got my American cheese sandwich---which, I must say, was incredibly fresh today

Yesterday, bought Summer of 49 by David Halberstam from the used bookstore that is a few blocks away,  A baseball memory book about that summer and the Yankee-Red Sox rivalry that dominated the American league at the time. My baseball infatuation began in 1951, but there are plenty of names of players on those two teams that are familiar to me, since they played into the fifties. There is something meaningful to me about going back in time---thinking about what the world of the two cities was like at that juncture. Similarly, Sherwin Nuland's memory book--a portrait of his relationship with his father and the home environment that he grew up in---allowed me to recreate in my mind the mostly Jewish  Bronx of the fifties---with its stickball games and neighborhood stores and a sense of non chaotic regularity about our existence. And sometimes I still haunt the google maps and look at some of the apartment buildings in those old Bronx Jewish neighborhood--I feel very moved---I want to go back there, but of course there truly is no "there" there---these are now working class black and Hispanic neighborhoods--with a very different set of standards and mores of their own. 

No real plans for today, continue reading---get my laundry taken care of---hope that the bag behaves itself. It is going to be a very pleasant and very warm for November day---tempting to spend a lot of time outside---but where...?  Tired, will also have to make up sleep that I lost a few hours ago. Trial by Jury, a Gilbert and Sullivan operetta will be on the radio later---should try to catch it---well, let's see how it all works out.......