cityboys countdown....

to his meeting with the internist tomorrow is happening. He still would like the doctor to tell him that the colonoscopy is not necessary---that, if all other medical tests that he took two weeks ago, and the stool sample come back negative, we can wait and see. But then again, after a day on Sunday when the situation with his "gut' seemed to improve, yesterday and still this morning, the cityboy still feels that something has changed. At the same time, the rest of his body is "easy", relaxed, for want of a better world. Why do I feel that the preparation for the colonoscopy and the procedure itself will be devastating? Others who I know have had it, some many times, and come out of it just as they went in. What does it signify to you, cityboy, that is so different from those that you know?
  Yesterday, followed up on my decision to catch the movie "Blindsided" and went to the cineopolis theater on 23rd street to see it. Theater was fairly empty---the movie has a fierce determination about it and deals with serious issues about race, but there are problems. Coincidences that move the plot forward seem false, and the while character is too disastrous to be true. It is hard to believe that Colin, his black friend, who seems to be searching for a new part of himself, would not, at some point move away from him. I left somewhat disappointed, returned to the apartment in the intense heat.
  At that point in the afternoon, I felt very tired. Came home and slept for a while, awoke around 7:30 and finally headed for the Dive Bar on 95th street. When I got there it was packed---trivia was still going on, (something to remember when you go on other Tuesdays) and Brittany, my bartender friend was no where to be found. I grabbed a slice of pizza next door, and headed to the newer dive bar on 106th street---things were much more mellow there. Many seats at the bar were available. Had a beer, then some roasted peanuts (needed a snack, not necessarily the peanuts but it was the only small item on the menu that was affordable) and for about an hour, watched the Yankee White Sox game, the Sox actually challenged the Yanks in this game (good pitching by the Sox starter) No conversations to speak of, but was able to focus on the game, which was good.
 Tonight, if possible, will head to Sweet Jane to play trivia and hang with my bartender friend Olivia.  Sweet Jane's is in Ridgewood,(Queens) a long trip, but last time there I  enjoyed myself. I teamed with a woman named Lindsay, she is from Bushwick, also a friend of Olivia, and a nice person. Will all this happen again? We will see.
  Tiredness is setting in, I am getting sleep. Perfectly understandable, since I did not sleep well last night. Have to put the whole thing together in the next couple of hours,; I long for change, will report tomorrow...