dealing with the "long haul"

 So here it is; Saturday morning, the first of a three day long weekend. Would love to go somewhere today---anywhere---but it is freezing outside--so that means no walks. Of course, the restaurants and coffee shops now can seat a few people---there is a hotel near me which has a small indoor  anteroom by the coffee stand, where I can sit and read for about a half hour---that should provide me with some relief---but right now, I am full after having a few slices of cheese and a roll, so I have to wait it out---until my stomach is ready for some coffee or capucino.

Tuesday's prep went well---I am now scheduled for what they call a "dry run" on Friday and the full treatment beginning the Monday after that. About six weeks of radiation---I hope I can get through it---and then the treatment is almost finished. I had a session with the blood oncologist and his assistant yesterday---they were both very positive about my progress.  Feeling good in that area. But still have to deal with my "feelings" over the weekend.

What then, are my choices, if I am stuck inside. Well, I ordered and took out three books from the library on Thursday---two novels---one by Louis Begley and one by Mary Gordon, and a non fiction book from Daniel Mendelsohn, dealing with his relationship with his father, centering on the time his father sat in on a course he taught at Bard, about The Oddyssey. Began reading Begley's book--a little chatty and somewhat superficial after about 50 pages. Will it get better and deeper? I will find out, for I am continuing to read it. The first pages of Mendelsohn's book are coherent and focused he really has not gotten to the real issues involved in the book. Also, I have read the first 50 pages of a Le Carre novel---my first one---very laid back and "english" but I want to finish it at some point. That is a lot of choices reading wise---lets see whether I have the concentration to move through them.

Just listened to the first movement of Mozart's Piano Concerto number 8, a fairly early one in his career, but still bursting with originality and inventiveness. Did not continue to the two following movements---sort of felt too restless, even though I love all his Piano Concertos. It shows you how restless I am. Then there is the NBA---will follfow some of their games---yesterday I went 3 for 3 with my bets---a little bit more secuure then I was earlier in the week. Tomorrow there are several games that look promising--will have to see what the odds are before I commit. Could be fun, but it is all here, in my apartment. I yearn for the freedom to move around the city---again, but I can't risk too much in this weather. How will all this be resolved, or dealt with. Will report soon