Friday morning......

 Yesterday's life was so full of structure. A visit to Lenox Hill for a cat scan, requested by the doctor who is my radiologist. Arrived at about 10:30; stayed there until about 1:30. Some frustrating moments: previous cat scans did not have any preparation; for this one I had to drink a very large amount of water---probably mixed in with something else. Then threre was the waiting, and finally the cat scan itself. By this time, I was starving---but I still had to see my radiologist. When I arrived at her office, she was with another patient---I was having a tough time physically---not happy, one of her office assitants made a nice attempt to calm me down---finally she arrived and we had our session. The good news: the tumor did not grow at all since the last cat scan. Encouraging. The bad news: some very small lesions in my lungs---the doctor felt they were too small to examine---might be nothing, but might also be.....well you can guess. At any rate, we are going to wait to see the results of the chemo before making any decision. Chemo continues on Monday---not much going on until then.

Today very little structure---the after care nurse will help me with my ostomy bag, which by now, I am sure that I can change by myself---yet---I hesitate. I have to protest part of my spectrum bill---might do that today, also the department of labor of NYS in all its glory, now wants me to present a driver's licence--passport and social security card before benefits can be released. How petty of them! I have been on unemployment since 2000---they have as much information as they need--plus, I don't have a Social Security card---so I had to order one, and I will never get it in at the deadline that they set in the letter. Do they really know what they are doing there? This gets me so angry---I am ready to give up on them.

Rest of the time: continue reading Dynasty---maybe a little bit of Letting Go, try to do some budget planning (which I am always doing in my head, anyway) Will I get out and go where...? It is supposed to be a rainy day, so time will tell.

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