Bridging the gap.....

just finished a strong "session", feeling concrete---real, satisfied. All good. But how to reconcile that with some of the "restlessness" that I experience at other times? Part of it is just a lot of time on my hands---but I can get very carried away with the "mythic" aspects of my current life. From my apartment, my imagination wants things---have to control it, but after this morning, it seems a little easier. Still, remembering how my mind explodes when I have unstructured time---a feeling that is very separate from the cityboy who tutors and focuses. Can the "restless" part of me be controlled---that is can I be less hard on myself at certain times. Let's see---today's session---the first that I have had since Monday---really opened my eyes. I suppose we will have to take it from there.
  Yesterday, the plan was to check out Dynaco, the bar on Bedford Avenue in Bed-Stuy that a friend of mine bar tends at. But in yesterday's early evening, I seemed to have walked right past it---decided to have a beer at Black Swan---an Bedford Avenue bar-restaurant that I have visited several times before. Good idea--it was not very crowded, watched some baseball and had a very interesting talk with another patron named Liam--a neighborhood resident. All good, felt like I had fulfilled my
"adventure" quota as I left, and walked south on Bedford to Fulton ( those Bed-Stuy streets really fascinate me). Also so an incredible amount of new building going on on the block. Somewhat oppressive. Anyway walked to Fulton, then took the bus back to Gotham Market (I had begun my Brooklyn evening there)  hung out for a while, then went home. Tired, really tired, but up around midnight, tired and frustrated. This feeling continued through the whole night (see above) until the dawn approached.  Much better now.
  Two things: reading Daniel Fuchs' novel Summer in Williamsburg--so amazing, the citizens he writes about (Jews living in Williamsburg around 1919) are totally real to me, their quirks and guarded behavior patterns. But it is a big book with two other novels by Fuchs in it as well---have trouble taking it out of the house--but that is where I want to read all my books---out of the house. So we will see if I can lug it somewhere as time goes on.
  Tonight---the much praised Fairview---I am finally seeing it. Have heard so many things about it. Really looking forward to being there. Anyway, that is all for now, will report soon.