feeling a little....

calmer today, but still thinking about what the colonoscopy means. For some reason, I see it as very threatening, not a positive action. I spoke to both Natalie and Jarrett about this last night, they were pretty cool and supportive what was happening, but need to discuss it further. Today I received my appointment with the internist who will prepare me for the procedure. It is August 9, two weeks from today exactly. This gives me some time to work my feelings through---also see if there is any improvement in my "condition" that is what sent me to the doctor in the first place. Meanwhile, a lot of other things are happening. On WNYC, there was a discussion that highlighted the frightening was those seeking asylum are treated by government agents. Have to feel a lot of compassion for those people,--I wish there was something I could do---well there is, I could make some contributions to groups trying to legally help the immigrants, and I have done that once. Now, with money pretty tight, it is not the time to make another contribution. Still, will think about it.
  Ironically, my fears re the approaching colonoscopy did not prevent me from having great discussion with many people at the party Jarett and Natlie had at the club on 37th street. It is in a luxury building a little west of  10th avenue, on the second floor. Out of the way? It would seem so, but the place was packed---no place in the city offering drinks seems hard to find in this city at the moment. But really good conversations, I continue to be very impressed by my niece Natalie---she really tries to see the whole picture re everything that is going on. Anyway, there were a lot of interesting people there---many of them classmates of Jarrett from Horace Mann (2000) whom he has kept up with. I got there around 8, left around 11, and waited for the 11 bus to take me back to the apartment. A good night.
  Earlier in the afternoon, I had met with Mitre, who works at Google (my first visit to the premises--lots of space---a lot of money easily spent to create it) to discuss a storyboard project. She would like me to participate in a dialogue with another New York person. Today, if I attend the West Side Story project at the library (if I get in) and my friend Jamie Sanchez the original Chino is there, I might ask him to have a dialogue with me for Story Corps. Not sure how I feel about that, will play it by ear.
  Finally a few words about the West Side Story celebration which will take place in the Lincoln Center Library auditorium. I am excited to go, but also feel a bit detached---although I live or die by what information I can still glean from the creation of that work from its original cast (an amazing group of people by the way) my present life is so interesting with all the interaction I am having, I am wondering if I may have reached my saturation point with the musical. Well, since I don't have a reserved seat, the plan is to join the line about 4 45 and wait until 6 in the hope I get in. Long line? Not sure, but should be interesting. Will report tomorrow.