tough time....

as the weekend approaches----have the flyer for the anti gentrification forum at my apartment, will make copies this afternoon, then give them out---but to whom? Tonight will visit my friend Erin, who bartends at Burp Castle, and lives in Bushwick, and is a bit of an activist---she will probably want one, might come, and might spread the word. Important, because I think a lot of people who might want to go or think about the issues presented at the forum, simply don't know about it. Yet flyering, especially in Brooklyn, near the museum, makes me nervous. Ambivalent about doing it, hate it when people walk away from me, I think if one is going to flyer, one needs to get into a "flyering head", where the avoiders become meaningless. Can I do this?  These are the questions I seem to face as we head to the weekend. Will feel angry at myself if I "chicken out". Thursday is open, but......
So it goes.
Last night, tired, played with all kinds of choices in my head before deciding on Lansdowne Road, where all the games were on TV. Said Hi to my friend CC who was bartending in the back and is excited to be preparing for her performance in the one act play festival at 59 east 59th street. Did not spend a lot of time with her, but know that she is happy about what is happening, and that I will be coming (probably some time in week 1). Nothing much happening at the bar, did watch baseball for about two hours, felt that I enjoyed that, however my sandwich came with french fries (I should not have asked for them) and I could not deny myself. Result: a possible beer at another bar could not happen, returned home around 11, read for a while, but then awoke in the middle of the night---had to get it together---managed to "chill" and go back to sleep.
So where will this end? Or how will this resolve itself---could use some support for my participation in the conference. But try to remember, cityboy, that this is a problem that you are only peripherally involved in---those that are making this happen are on the front lines---it effects them directly. And while the services in your rent stabilized building are just that---"stabilized" you are not dealing with the predatory vision of those realtors who have just bought apartment houses in Brooklyn.
All right, enough! Let's get on with the rest of the day..