disappointed....

received work offer at friends around 7:30--but I was sitting in a coffee shop (one which I usually don't go to) and apparently the signal did not go through. Got back to H wilson about the job which I wanted in about 10 minutes, but he had already called someone else who accepted it. Drat! Could have taken phone call at home any time before that--was totally free and a little bummed out because I was not going in---or could have received a phone call any time last night. Really gets me angry, simply not there because of circumstances. Well, maybe the time will be put to good use. Have some more free time this evening. Still, don't enjoy dealing with the "void" oh well, there are some things I can do today that I wouldn't have done if I worked.
Last night, tired, decided to have dinner at Irish Pub on 72nd street, bartender there, John, very nice, watched about 5 innings of both NY baseball games, but not much else. One conversation with a 72nd street "veteran" named John, who has been going to that pub, and also its famous predecessor, All State Cafe sine the 80's Now in I think his late fifties, he made his money in advertising and is retired---guess he has all the money he needs. Wish I could say he was interesting, I respect his decency, but could have found more colorful conversations if I had the strength to go to one of my places in Brooklyn. But still tired from the day before, the pub seemed the best choice.
Today, since I am not at Friends, there is a rally at City Hall at 1, which I definitely should attend---its groups that are fed up with the mayor's policy of rewarding his contributors at the expense of others. Ambivalent, and it is an ugly day, but should go. Then at least two sessions---now that evening is free, should force myself to do something a little more interesting then watching baseball---but where..? Maybe one of the trivia games in Brooklyn (have not done that for a long time) or just hanging out at South fourth or somewhere like that. Will see how I feel in late afternoon, but think that I have been holding back a bit---maybe that accounts for the malaise that I was in when I woke up this morning.
Where do we go from here..? Not sure----really annoyed at how "fate" stopped me from being at Friends, oh well, will be there Friday, maybe even tomorrow, will let you know....