finally arrived....

the money from the government, that is. So why am I so torn? Would like to use some of it, but at the same time, the voice inside my head that has been guiding me financially for the past few months, tells me that a lot of it should be saved as we approach the summer, and the usual non-earning weeks. Well, we will see.
Just read another negative, snarky review of Three Penny Opera which I saw at Altlantic last week and liked. It seems to me that for this work, everyone has a vision in their own mind of what it should be, and then figures out if what they see lives up to it. Is this version too tame, kind of like a breughel painting, but lacking some of the sharpness that is needed to make it effective. It essentially showed me the work, without pushing me towards some feeling that was imposed.
Yesterday arrived at library for lesson with Andrea, but the mother abruptly canceled, very irresponsible but I dealt with it---decided to see Enemy, a very intense movie by a canadian filmmaker---very obsessional, kept me occupied throughout, highly erotic. Afterwards too tired to go to a bar and hang out, though I saw a nice bar on west third street that seemed interesting. Instead, had a good slice of pizza at two boots on bleeker, then returned home, tired, but woke up this morning feeling a bit sad and empty, should I have really gone to La Flaca for the evening instead, to be with people, or maybe played trivia at Cobra, which I have never done before? Not sure how I will feel tonight after my sessions with Michaela and Tamia. Have heard good things about trivia game at the place in Inwood. Maybe check that out, or go down to La Flaca.
Still no decision re reunion, a part of me really does not want to go---but then another part of me......