Feeling optimistic....

but not sure why..stomach really dominated me yesterday, but seems to be better today, still there are things that I notice that are different---not clear how it will all shape out----also my neighbor downstairs is having problems with the oil overspill from the boiler---and the "super" is rigid about nothing being wrong---how will that play out---trying to be an intermediary for both----nevertheless, as I sit here I am feeling 'up" so many options to consider---so many ideas, artistic and realistic (the two are really separate) to ponder and consider.
Reading the biography and analysis of Philip Roth's work---really exciting to see the path of his life and the path of his ideas set out,as  the author does. Will probably follow through with this today and tomorrow---also have Auster's autobiography in my house---don't know how soon I will get to this---Auster is, of course, much closer in age to me than Roth--still, have to ask, "where am I in all this...?" My own inability to sit down and do what they do---that is, put ideas into print----is a constant thought while I read through
these works. I am a "doer'---I can't separate myself from "life" to create something written, unless I am asked by someone to do it.
Herny Roth, the other Roth, all of a sudden comes into my mind---his life in the twenties and early thirties---
more haunting....
Reality: will try to visit Austen today at Cobra (acutally Sunday at Cobra was not that great) and then maybe to south fourth if Merlin is working. Would like to share some ideas with him---a movie in the mix...? Possibly---depends on how much time is available to me, and how the stomach is reacting---like I said, much better today---
Tomorrow, Xmas day, usually a difficult one for me---hard looking for sympathetic bartenders---maybe Lansdowne Falls will be open, can watch some of the Net game there--of course there are always movies,
maybe even a play---some have performances tomorrow, so we'll see---let's get on with life!