another afternoon....

in Brooklyn, having tutored Chaya on  Brooklyn Avenue---then wandered around to the park, still a magnificent walk---stopped on Ocean Avenue to view the apartments, of course they take me back to a time when if my parents had taught in Brooklyn, we would have lived there (never would have lived in Manhattan---families did not do that in the late forties and fifties) . Cold, which prohibited me from walking even more, also want to possibly see the first NCAA game on in about an hour.
But always good to be here.
Yesterday, exhausted after four straight hours of tutoring, with only a coffee break, yet felt a new strength from that committment---returned home with some thoughts of doing something in the evening, but wa much too tired, could not even walk to 72nd street to sit and eat at the Irish bar which has replaced the All State. Simply stayed home, read and listened to music, really feeling the fatigue.

But then awoke with a start around 3 A.M. Lots of energy, surprised by how alive my body felt.
But what to do...? Put everything together, thought of the day, then thought about the final scene of Manon from last Wednesday's performance, realized that Manon tried to out pace the conventions of life, wonder if this applies to me also, after all, here I am at my age, being incredibly active and committed. Have I outpaced my contemporaries vis a vis my way of life and outlook? A little pretentious, but at that time, I needed to feel a sense of my own uniqueness. Could here the final duet of Manon in my head, with all its erotic urgency and passion. Yes, these two people are totally involved in their own passion. Continued to reason this way for the rest of the time before daybreak, did not want to turn on the radio or listen to another boring sports call in program, which is what I usually give myself to do if I am up at that time.
So here I am, no television, smart phone or computer in the house to distract me at those moments.
Feel as if I need that space to think and that possibly posession of those gadgets would deprive me of that.
Nothing more to say, tutoring continues at a fast pace, Friends reopens tomorrow, already have two days of work in the next six days---should be fun, and then there are the events of Thursday, Saturday, Monday (the sixth) and the Monday after that that will be attended. Must keep traveling today, don't know if I will wind up at South Fourth or not, but we will see..