The Namesake, the remarkable novel by Jhumpa Lihari. Really gets me involved. No work today---by design, but this is not the "rest" I would have hoped for. Wanted to move OUT---but my body dissappointed. Actually left the apartment this moorning at 5, because I was starving, and could not wait for Fairway to open at 6. So it's the corner grocery on 72nd and West End---braved the cold going south, not too bad, but returning to the apartment felt brutal gusts of wind in my face. Had to fight my way through it---took a lot of determination-but I did it. No food in the apartment again now---poor planning on my part---am hoping no appetite changes until the morning. Should hunger come---? Well, who's to say?
I stay in so much more now--is it my energy or is it simply the cold? For three days this week, my energy was low--but still accomplished my lessons. Today I had hoped for my energy---enough perhaps to take me to a movie or play---but it did not happen. After my return from the grocery I got very tired, and for the rest of the day, enrgy has been an issue. Will this get better as the temperature rises? Would love to go to Broooklyn or some place that is not upperwest side. Holiday approaches--an extra day---some possibilities.
Soo this is where I stand now. After so many months of chemo, will it really slow down my body? Hard to say---need to slow down---give it some time. Feel a tremendous need for ogange juice, perhaps should go out now.
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