some ups and some....

downs---a strange day, fairly uneventful. I received some good news this morning. My first stimulus bonus on unemployment came through. I now have more money in the bank then I have had for a long time, and should have more. But so what..? What is there to spend it on? The city is still a dead zone. Nevertheless, it is nice that it came in. Also, returned two e mails from friends whom I was very happy to hear from. But the day went slow, and my energy was not especially high. Probably because I did not sleep well last night. Tonight...? We will see.
  Less people are being admitted to the hospitals at this point, but some politicians continue to paint a brutal picture---and I don't like it. I hope at least part of this lockdown can be lifted soon.

Try a memory, city boy---try to escape into the world of the past. Does not quite work. Remember the first spring you spent in Baltimore---your freshman year at Hopkins. What do you remember. A garbage role in the spring production of Mr. Roberts (after playing a lead role in the winter play). The heat---warmer and softer than in NYC. Space---Baltimore had so much more space, so much more sky then NYC. That is what I really liked--the "softness" of the city, or the area where Hopkins was. Going out with girls from the Baltimore high schools. Sometimes I think you remember too much.
The trip to DC to see Carnival before it came to Broadway---coudn't even get a standing room. Instead my friend and I went to Arena's production of Tiger at the Gates--not very good. One of those days that were sad. The reason why we went (or at least the reason why I went) was because Saturday was a major dance, and I had no date. I remember coming home feeling very defeated.

Would like to return to DC this summer--maybe my new found money will enable me to take a longer trip then last summer (2 or 3 days instead of just one sleepover)  Well, we will see...