from darkness into...

light---have just listened to the full performance of the Archduke Trio by Beethoven. A third movement that is terribly sad and reflective lead into a very "jaunty' final movement. And so, like the ninth symphony and the final (opus 135) quartet, Beethoven rejects the slow movement as the second one and demands that no release shall be given before the listener experiences the sadness, the warmth of the movement before. I am not saying that listening to the Ode To Joy by itself is meaningless--of course it isn't, but listening to it after Beethoven's long and elegiac third movement gives one the release and the joy that one is entitled to.
  I hear the archduke third movement in my head, as I read that the whole season of Shakespeare in the Park has been canceled. Sad upon sad. I had hoped that if things got better they could at least do
the scheduled As You Like It, but I guess not. Maybe it had something to do with funding from the city---who can say---but I was really looking forward to it.
 Will there be no theater until September or October? What about movies..? If it is true, I don't feel particularly sad about it--I can stand the wait---but...? Sitting here, trying to experience the sorrow and blocked creative feelings that my friends who are actors, playwrights and producers must be feeling. What happens to them,  both creatively and in"real life"? Nothing is certain.
  Strange day: took the subway to my bank in Union Square, only to find out it was closed. Now the only branch that is open is in Co op city, which is pretty far, and I need to deposit a check. Not sure what to do. Came back to the apartment, overate a bit, and then listened to the music. Still a lot of time in the day where do we go from here.
  Slept well yesterday, woke up feeling optimistic and accepting of the next "stay in place" order.
Probably because I was so proud of my writing for this blog and a few other things yesterday. I  feel  a nice sense of strength. I assume that will continue, will report soon.