all night....

last night, slept fairly easily. Important to prepare myself for today, with my sessions and the performance of Into the Woods at Friends this evening. Want to be very alert for that.
   Yesterday was an odd night. All dreams of either watching baseball at Standings or attending Casablanca Box at HERE were squashed when early fatigue set in. Tested the waters, but the body, given the choice, did not want to go anywhere. So, after some yogurt and chips, returned to the apartment and attempted to sleep. Attempt not great, but did get some sleep in, then awoke at about 8:30 and found my body ready to go. But where?  Too late for plays, and having already seen one movie earlier, was not in the mood for a later one. So, what to do with all this energy? Maybe a beer at one of the bars on the west side, but stomach was pretty full. But I would not stay in. Got on the subway at 79th street, took the 1 to 110th. Then commenced my journey which would be from 110, to 103rd, down Broadway, and if the spirit moved me, to 96th street. First three blocks very quiet, bars do not begin until 107street. Like the somewhat rustic atmosphere of these blocks, still appear to me somewhat hard scrabble, less unified and bland then the blocks that surround my apartment on 76street. Hummed the first ballet music from Somewhere as I moved down the block, seemed to be appropriate for my feelings. Passed the Beer Bar on 106th. pretty crowded, could have found some room at the bar, but declined. Then moved a little bit east on 105th and looked into Abbey Bar. Looks like a true neighborhood bar---people of all ages sitting at the bar---but the few times I have gone there I have felt left out or annoyed by the smug familiarity of those present. Again, declined--stomach not really anxious for beer. Continued to 103rd, then subway---felt that I had fulfilled my "mission" that was to create some excitement for myself as I moved south on Broadway. Walked about half way east on 108th street---one doorman building and several substantial ones. I remember when walking down that block, even during the day, would have made me anxious, but no more. I understand that my safety has been accomplished at some price. At any rate, even if I did not meet anyone that I knew, or stopped off to chat, felt fulfilled and that the time was used well. Returned home, heard the end of the baseball games and fell asleep very quickly.
  I have five days committed to Friends this week--so I don't know when the next post will be. Normally, I never post when I sub, but this week might be different. At any rate, will try to report as soon as I can.