so I did....

go to the new coffee shop on Fourth (ugly) avenue, after leaving the library. Nice ambience, though it reeks of a kind of "park slopian" energy---still, the coffee was excellent, seems like a nice place to sit and read for a while. Returned to Manhattan after that, restless, but did nothing until seeing A Christmas Tale last night, very enjoyable, kept me occupied for its two and a half hour length---much more trenchant, say, then Rachel's Wedding. Woke up this morning feeling grouchy---decided not to see the movie about the making of Mother Courage, which I had planned to do. Why? Is there something about the outright aggressiveness of Meryl Streep (from around 29 years ago) that still puts me off? And what to do until I head for South Fourth this evening---am in the library now, and probably I will get some CD's; possibly listen to some of these while I am waiting---and what time to get to South Fourth, how will I deal with all the partying? Will I stop off at 119---probably, then tomorrow at the party at the Singers---should be interesting, will I see something before or after.....? Hard to say. At this point, feel the difference between seeing a live performance and a movie is really strong, nevertheless, should see "important" movies. At any rate, after Monday, time will have to be so well apportioned, that who knows what I will see...? Will try to have some report on New Year's (projected to be very cold) for the next blog.

here I am...

at the library outside of Park Slope. Promised myself I would spend part of the day in Brooklyn, so here I am. A little drained, had a nice time at South fourth yesterday, will go back there for New Year's party. But today.....what....? Should I visit new coffee house on fourth, or go visit my buddy Jimmy at south fourth, where time is running out. what about movies....plays, had a good session with Chelsea yesterday, clarity in her reading is really happening---she can read and write comfortably in sentences, and that is very good. As for myself............

an interesting....

decided to go to the Scorsese movie in the afternoon---okay, then headed to South Fourth, had my coffee, a nice time, then decided to check in at Heights Cafe----to my surprise had a very good time, even if I had to hear of the death of two regulars, Charlie (a great surprise) and Victor, an older teachera t Saint Ann's. Still everyone was very friendly, very happy to see me, had a good conversation with a gentleman named Aaron, and Tom told me about his adventures at the Met as a standby for a non-speaking part in La Rondine. Still is an older peron's bar, no doubt about it, but felt very gratified after I left. Many other interesting places in Brooklyn that I would like to check out, but begs the question---if you are at home in certain places, how can you visit others? Asssuming, that is one is on a tight budget, which I am, and also has a stomach that can only receive so much. Anyway, a good time was had by all, tomorrow I will tutor in the Bronx, today decide what to do before I see the musical at Urban Stages this afternoon at 5:30.

nice xmas eve....

at Margo's house--somewhat surprised at this, since several others I did not enjoy, or found the participants a little stifling or pretentious---but this with a much smaller group, found conversation about both theater and politics very meaningful---myself and Margo, Rhetta, Joanne, Lily P, and before Theresa left, her, a group of very aware sixty-somethings talking about very meaningful things---almost felt like I wanted to continue the conversation, don't know how much contact I will have with the others besides this, but anyway, wanted to list it.
Yesterday a slow day, but saw Gypsy in the evening--was not in love with Patti Lupone's performance, a lot of in's and out's---still it is an incredible piece of musical theater (that is not saying much) and found the new ending (if you call it that) viable. Today want to stay away from watching something, may go to Brooklyn to hang out (finally!) if I need to see something can always go to a late movie. Don't know if I will tutor tomorrow....we'll see.

to take it from where...

we left off---very disappointed by Schrott's performance and the whole Don Gionvanni first act, which turned out very stiff, at best like a well sung concert----Schrott or the stage director seems not to have noticed that he is the reason for the opera's existence---his agreement to go where the stage director had placed him was aimiable, but hardly electric. Are the reviews just pushing everything at Peter Gelb's met? Anyway, still have not stayed for a full performance for a while---wonder if that will continue.
Yesterday worked at 163---enjoyed it, the kids are great, but came back totally destroyed physically---slept and woke last night with great regularity---feeling better today, walked to Lincoln Center, but was amazed at how tired I felt yesterday evening, and this is without tutoring afterwards. Well, perhaps just a glitch in the schedule---rest of the week looms large---lots of time to move around....we'll see

five days later....

returning from Friends after the Christmas assembly, which brought back a lot of the older alumni---really nice to see themm all, glad I could talk to Hayden and Cheryl at length. Watching the assembly, felt that I was experiencing a kind of perfect harmony among students and faculty, a world in which all wanted to do good...adequate perception.....? not sure. Anyway, tonight make my first trip to Met Opera, will see Schrott do Don Giovanni, somewhat exhilirated by this...tomorrow the first Christmas party then.......

rest and....

????? relaxation? Perhaps, but much to do today, will probably see Adam's play in the afternoon, and maybe Keith's play in the evening. Would have liked to have gone to the Met, either afternoon or evening, but seems like a bit too much. Strange, I seem to have an approach-avoidance relationship with the Met. Probably will listen to first act of Queeen of Spades on radio, which should be enough. maybe see Don Giovanni next Friday. Anyway, yesterday worked very hard at Friends, the two different classes total contrasts---llth grade focused, intense, I worded very hard watching them---the eighth grade---jumping out of their skins, animated, full of energy---the whole thing left me extremely exhausted. Came home and (ofcourse) slept. Hope to relax a little this weekend, but ofcourse will be on the run. Monday up again into the high fifties---can't believe it---well, let's see how it plays out......

seven days of.....

work at Friends, really more than I could have asked for, also a little more tutoring----the wear and tear on my body has been immense-----today I awoke feeling kind of sore all over---happy that I did not get any work from Friends. But the last few days have been very gratifying---really feel good there, and also went to two basketball games. So that's good. Not much time for much else, but will try to see a few plays that I have friends or acquaintances involved with...about three, and a few others, and also, possibly Tristan and Don Giovanni at the Met. Saw David on Sunday, took the train down to New Brunswick to visit with him---he seems in very good spirits---holidays will be for what---still a lot of time and a lot of work---let it evolve...

long night

after seeing Geometry of Fire, returned home, rather then visit any of my "hangouts" Body felt tired, atleast that is the message I got. Slept around 11:00, but then awoke around 12:45. full of enregy. What to do? Decided to sit on it, as my stomach was still recovering from Thanksgiving. Could have gone for a beer, instead, around 1:45 when I did go out, settled for a quick walk and a muffin from West Side Market, and then home to tough it out. But was that right? Constantly holding back? Can't do that again tonight, too difficult. Meanwhile, I wait for Monica to assure me that I will be subbing on Monday at Friends, and wonder why my money has been withheld by unemployment. Proud of the way I handle my budget, probably no one better, but still......., always inside and outside, two different worlds. Will promise to keep myself out a little later tonight, must, really, even if the cost be a little greater. Will go to Williamsburg, probably sometime after the play at the public. Movie? Maybe, how much art goes for one day, then again........

a nice.....

time at the Schwarz-Baum's yesterday for Thanksgiving---both girls, Jessie and Molly are extremely perceptive and fun to interact with. Ate a lot--still stuffed from yesterday; wonder if I will eat at all today---also tutored Martha---alejandra's little sister in the Bronx-also lots of fun. Wonder if Monica will finally have jury duty on Monday, I assume she will, if not.....no word on why I did not receive benefits from NYS this week-will probably not find out until next week if at all, but will file on Monday. Two plays atleast for the next two days, maybe one movie---I should see Rachel's wedding this weekend, because I probably will not have the timea after that....otherwise, things seem to be going nicely

Baltimore....how...

i love being there. Saturday through sunday morning------left because the cold made it hard to move around---as it turns out it was good that I did---since I found out I was not subbing for Monica at Friends, and got the job for one (2!) days at Bensonhurst. Found myself exhausted after working at 163, but really enjoyed being there and being with the kids. Teachers seem familiar with me, even if in the last two years I have been there only a few days (but in 2004-05, and 2005-06, was there very often) Afterwards, had to tutor Chelsea, so began the long and incredibly grueling ride to the Bronx--D from Bensonhurst to 125; walk two long blocks to Lenox and then the 2 to Bx Park East. Glad I am not working today, so the trek will be a lot easier. Tomorrow, I will see if there is some interesting work for me at a decent school to sub in, but probably will be on my own.
As for Baltimore, Robin says that there will be a guest room available in her house soon, so maybe an extended stay is a possibility. Would love to take a couple of days to really wander around the place. That's all now

yesterday and today

yesterday, went to South Fourth, had a nice time with Jimmy, then off to the library on Leonard Street, took Lorimer Avenue bus to Fulton and Franklin---walked to my bank, which is on Fulton between Bedford and Nostrand---then up Nostrand to Eastern Parkway, back to Washington to have lunch at Tom's---really great coffee! Hungry most of the walk, however, was able to make it anyway. That evening terrible Fourposter---what is the point in reviving something like that anyway.....? but a strong meal at Ollies accross the street---woke up this morning at the usual time (2A.M.) feeling very strong, continue to feel strong for most of the day---but oh, the wait...! turned down atleast one job I might have taken because I could not have tutored Chelsea, then gone to Friends to see the play and also subbed at this school because the job apparently lasted until 5. The result is that somehow I feel incredibly restless----constantly have to justify to myself that things might be necessary to receive warmth from chelsea and the kids at Friends. Still, all this time makes me feel raw, probably because it is too cold to walk, and I am trapped in Manhattan. Tomorrow at Friends, as well as Monday and Tuesday---spoke to Robin last night, she is looking forward to having me come down on Saturday, and seeing the play. Also it will be nice to say hi to Deborah Hedwall. Virginia Woolf again....what does that mean---also, memory of Fourposter, seeing my parents come back with a program, probably about 51, or 52. This has settled me a bit---let's see what happens......

so I did.....

return to Brooklyn, saturday evening and sunday---saturday evening had fun---somewhat---the encounter with Sarah---a little penetrating, but is that so bad......sunday first hanging with Mark and Annie at Heights Cafe, then on to the bank on Fulton, between Nostrand and Bedford (can we remember that for future reference?) and then to Bedford and fulton to wait for the bus, finally the only one that came was going to Flushing avenue (I, ofcourse was gunning for Williamsburg) so even in what seemed to be cold weather, walked from Bedford and Flushing to South Fourth---long, but I was able to do it--hope there is some tolerably "fall" weather remaining so I can do some more exploring around Brooklyn, still have not taken that 14 bus, that actually goes into Brownesville---would like to do that---anyway, yesterday worked for Glenn Arena, a little out of it because I could not contibutet in math, but enjoyed a brief encounter with the 10th graders----no work at FRiends today, gave up a chance to work at NEST high school---seemed to me at that time I was very tired, certainly don't feel it now, probably had to do it anyway---I guess---a little ahead financially, finally but how will that play out on the trip to Baltimore.....later.....

three days later.....

worked yesterday for Rochelle, had some good talks with the kids, tomorrow and Friday also at Friends. Still, having trouble sleeping normally....would like to go to the Shalimar workshop tonight on Wall Street...will really try...so do not want to feel tired when I leave the bronx after tutoring Chelsea. Want to return to Brooklyn...but when......?

too much...

bought an hour of time at the computer shop this moring, and am already running out of sites to visit. Great day to go to the theater, only I am tired and trying to keep the money down. Still, some interesting things on Audience Extras, will have to skip for now. Yesterday watched Howard's son's team play football in the grueling rain---actually enjoyed it---great sightlines to watch an interesting game from---but from standing and holding umbrella for a long time, I am tired, hardly know if I will go to Williamsburg after this, though I should. Fun, as usual to travel though the Bronx. Still have no idea about work these first three days---nothing at Friends, yet, until Thursday's marathon for Frank and Chris Doire. Saw Fifty Words last night--last performance, actors exhausted themselves, but the play, though it has parts that are well written, seems now to me to be more of a stunt---too contrived, goes through too many contortions.
Read a beautiful passage in Curtis Sittenfeld's American Wife this morning, on the 1 train. This is certainly the best novel I have read in a long time. Passage is about memory and the choice of lovers....speaking of which.....anyway, will stay home toninght around 5 to see what DOE offers me, if nothing from Friends has come in---though I might enjoy just finishing Ms. Sittenfeld's book tomorrow........

spent a lot......

of money yesterday---funny, as I wasn't very hungry yesterday morning, but after finally making some plans for the afternoon-early evening, saw movie Synedoche--unbelievable, I got nothing from it, absolutely nothing. Charlie Kaufman fanciful, but here, really told a story about an unbelievably boring guy, surrounded by unbelievably boring people. Felt cheated, but atleast the time went by----then had a great piece of pizza off orchard street, then met Joey Gilford and girl friend and chatted with him a bit, still hasn't gotten his play on, it is really good, but probably does not "sinc" with the agenda of major not for profits in ny. That is the way I see it---then off to South Fourth, good, if short time, Julianna, is ofcourse, warm and friendly, a few others were interesting, then moved on---thought it was time to explore Stain---love the atmosphere of the place, but since they were just finishing up a poetry reading, not much for me to do except read, no conversation to be had, and that is really what I am there for, right...then wandered over to Lorimer---found a 24 hour hummus place on Lorimer and Grand, great to know....right--you can always take the subway out there at 2A.M. some morning and lounge on coffee and hummus--that should make for a great evening in the burg! Then, believe it, back to 119, hooked up with Howard, told him I would attend his son's game at Fordham, soon it is off to the boogie-down Bronx for me, some adventure before the game, anyway, tonight the other Weller play...and then.........

long week.....

4 days in a row at Friends, including two when I went to the Bronx afterwards to tutor Chelsea....phsically very tired. Feeling rather strong in other ways......Kindness turned out to be a very strong play, and then it was good seeing Adam at 119 on Tuesday, and then catching up....can he really be 40....amazing....! Not sure what I want to do for the rest of the day.....tomorrow pretty set.......so let us see what will come about...short post......

far more relaxed....

on Saturday morning--perhaps the whole week has been so frenetic, that now I can only feel that I got my bearings. A really good idea to see Cymbeline, last night. Really interesting play, perfect location for me, two blocks away, no exertion, and actually, the play was done pretty well; the group of six actors worked very hard, and got most of the points across. Next week, three long days (atleast) at Friends, but atleast tomorrow, I can be where I want to be. And where is that...? Not quite sure, though I will try to visit with Layla tomorrow at Bembe in the early evening. Will see Adam's play this afternoon----should be some feelings there, say hello to Ray and possibly Annette. Anyway, a little looser.......

so after

2.5 days of subbing, and plans for jobs in the next few weeks, I find myself pretty protected in terms of finance. So why the restlessness, bob? It is hard to work a full day at Friends and then go to work with chelsea, but she is doing really well, feel a sense of excitement when i see how she is putting it all together.
Weekend---will see cymbeline, in my neighborhood tonight---that seems to make sense, and if I am not tired after that, maybe to Williamsburg, though the subways will be pretty wild, this evening. tomorrow, Adam's play, with all those I know and almost know. Lots of work next week, and the election....think I will acutally get to a movie....? is that important, still haunted by boundaries....enough!

how the horses did.....

they did okay in the cup, actually broke even---made some very good choices, and if I hadn't added on in the end, would have come out a little ahead. still, seems like I am making good betting choices. No work today, but tomorrow at Friends, actually got called twice for tomorrow (ofcourse I would have loved to been called once today) . Also, an e-mail from Glenn, who teaches Math about two more days in November. Hope to pick up some more work before long.....Yesterday had a nice conversation with Layla at Barbes, will try to return there next week....off to tutor chelsea, what else.....?

a fun......

a fun night at South fourth street yesterday, some very good conversation, left feeling very satisfied, even if the rest of the day was very weird. Today, decided to be on three races in the Breeders cup, and now I wait......Will probably return to South Fourth tonight and tomorrow, maybe go to Bembe and hang with Layla tomorrow evening; I owe her a visit.
Feeling optimistic about everything, despite not having enough work---don't quite understand why I don't want to accept DOE assignments, computer voice awfully cold, however---probably a lot will be determined by how my horses do; did okay yesterday, and more importantly, exercised option to move away, when it was necessary......later!

strange week.....

would have liked to work more than once...turned down another good school today---ofcourse I did not know that. Also added some schools in Brooklyn and the Bronx---maybe that will encourage me to take some jobs near Chelsea so it will be easier to tutor her.
Yesterday---attended the Jerome Robbins American Masters premier. What can I say? The whole thing.....did not talk to anyone afterwards---yesterday it seemed I ran around like a maniac. Had to go tutor Chelsea before the Robbins---trip to the Bronx, and then back. On the train, on the way back, as we hit Freeman or 174 street, I was standing there, practically had to restrain myself from snapping my fingers. Yes, I am proably and expert on theater at that time, but what does that mean.....now tired, not much energy to go to Brooklyn, but tonight....well, we'll see.

make this a

quick one, cityboy, two minutes to go---what!? Sheer exhaustion. Tired but miss Friends already. Busy today in the evening, after tutoring, may see At This Performance, to see Emma---good talk with my brother yesterday, got off G train at Myrtle Willoughby---interesting, does this make sense.....?

so there I was....

all last weekend preparing myself for the "slump" in work at friends, only to discover that I actually had four days work (in three days) there this week. Complete exhaustion, but worth it. What next? Nothing for next week at all, but that could change. As for the weekend, again, fraught with choices, really enjoyed that Frank Langella article in that silly blurb that I got in the mail; it made me want to see Man for All Seasons, even without the common man. Emma's evening coming up, maybe I will make it, and also the Robbins documentary. Baseball tonight? I don't know---have not been to South Fourth in a while, after my marathon there last weekend. Very heartened by the city council meeting reports and the many people who have spoken out against the Mayor's decision to run for a third term. So, the day continues.......

working at

Friends tomorrow, thank goodness, feel much more relaxed now---the weekend, many walks---took L to Jefferson Avenue stop---walked around, area seems very hispanic---circled Maria Hernandez park---then walked west to Flushing Avenue---which seems to stop Bushwick dead in its tracks---the beginning of "East Williamsburg", but certainly the end of Bushwick. Wandered around East W, lots of people out with dogs, etc---then up Bushwick Avenue to Montrose and then home, only to return to-----Williamsburg (of course) for the Paradise Lost compilation. Sunday, ofcourse, the long walk from Heights Cafe to 5th and 12 street in Brooklyn. Easy walk, took very little out of me----yesterday visited the Polo Grounds, stood outside of what was the field, traveled down to the subway, probably the first time I was there since age 13. Remember that long walk up the stairs, then up to small ramp to the ticket sellers. Amazed and put off by the abrupt transformation of harlem---another example of our powerlessness.? How will the "crisis" effect the building? Anyway, soon off to the Bronx to work with Chelsea....later.....

feel the breeze......

what an incredible day. A perfect day for all the elements inside of me to battle re plans to make. How much money to spend? How to spend it (credit card--oh no!---or real money, of which you have very little) and what is more valuable? Experiencing by watching, or by simply wondering and allowing the moment to be your guide. Continued good time at South Fourth yesterday---some interesting conversations with Genevieve and her mother, here for a 68 Bronx Science reuinon. Yesterday at Painting Center----long but got through it. Have determined that slow times at Friends may mean really seriously looking for work in DOE schools, but how much...?
Constant questions and answers, still have never really felt stronger.........

so yesterday.....

i did not teach; but I walked, and walked, and walked. One major: 113 street and Broadway to 76; one medium:145 at Lenox to 149 Grand Concourse, and then the walk from 180 street up Morris Park to Chelsea's house. Today, I feel great, body feels strong---hoped for work at Friends, did not happen, tomorrow I am there, and I will find out if I can proctor a test the next Saturday. Anyway, visited LIC to check out location of Sinatra school, if I am ever called there. Still confused: expect there to be enough work for me at Friends, not to have to look for work at DOE schools, but.......five days of not being called at Friends can seem like a lifetime. Meanwhile, continue to work with chelsea, set aside time for her---fear going to Queens to sub and then returning to Bronx to work with her, but actually should not be so hard. Time will tell.
A beginning: A man about 65 travels the 2 train around Freeman Street. White, professional, what is he doing there? Was he raised there? Is this the end of his life? Why does the life (or picture of life) there fascinate me?
At midtown library, trying to choose a book for me to read that will be "pertinent"....we'll see.

bummer, bummer....

so here I sit, at the library by Columbia, while I could be four blocks away, subbing in one of the best junior high schools in the city. Can you believe it! So first I get shafted on Friday, then my subbing for tomorrow is canceled, and now I find out that a great school called me (or atleast the computer) and I didn't go there. Calm down cityboy! Yet when will this end? How long do I have to manage my money like a hawk? All right, so you have things basically in control, but still.....this is a strong moment for me, I feel very strong, like I could do anything, and yet.......well, let us see what the future brings.......

quite a day.......

not feeling to great this morning, but now somewhat exhilirated since I corresponded with newspaperman re article about the mayor. Still not sure if I will take his advice, but feel involved. Still wondering about work tomorrow, should not forget that I took a bus from Washington Heights into the Bronx that primarily went down 170 Street. Fascinating trip! On this very dark day, the Bronx seemed very non-threatening, many streets quiet, almost deserted, a whole swath of streets that seemed to be very weakly inhabited. Very nice development around Freeman Street; seemed very tranquil---a few blocks away the apartments where the students who went to James Monroe in the forties and fifties, students to whom my father taught math to, were brought up. Could (should) have stayed longer, then a bus down Southern Boulevard to the zoo, to Fordham Road. Again, looked at the houses on Crotona Parkway, once (thirties, forties?) considered very special. Yet nothing really threatening about them or the area, which I suppose is strange, since this is officially the "South Bronx". Now in the library, probably will simply return to the apartment and wait for the possible calls at 5:00---maybe a movie after that. Glad I decided to do something different than "hang out", perhaps that is getting a little stale. Yet had a good conversation at South Fourth with a teacher named Joey--have met many interesting people there this week in the three times that I visited. The place attracts such a magnet of people, that is what makes it good.
Later payed a visit to East River, just had a beer, checked in with Erin, said hello to Corenna, whom I had met before---then returned to Manhattan to check in with the guys at 113. So that is it.....later......

What will.....

cityboy do today? How much money will he spend? Here I sit in the Bronx public library, working on the computer--but that will soon end, and then where......to South Fourth, or to other parts of Brooklyn? To Riverdale to make a bet? A ride in a bus into the "South Bronx" before I get back to Manhattan? Arrived at 207 street on the 1 train today, then walked into the Bronx, over the 207 street bridge, again got the nostalgia kick by looking at the buildings, actually a lot of advertising going on for buildings west of Jerome Avenue, bordering on Fordham Road. Anything else? Interesting article in the Times about some houses on Sheridan Avenue, an area where I visited a friend from camp in June of 1955. Still remember playing stick ball in the school yard that was accross the street from his house---ofcourse the neighborhood was all Jewish then, no sign of what was to follow, then home to find out that Gil MacDougald of the Yankees had almost blinded Herb Score. Anyway, memories continue........the rest of the day?..........

weirded out....

today, spent the first part of my early morning preparing to go to 163, and hoping that Friends would not call; then the phone---and it was a cancellation of my job at 163----so---nothing.
Will go to NYMF today at 1, then the doctor whose secratary called for a back and such check, then maybe to Danny Hoch at Hostos---should check. Yesterday, too tired to go to South Fourth after tutoring, still find the South Bronx trip on the 2 train fascinating---a longing to get off and look around, but still hard to do--too tired to take Boston Road bus to 149 street. What next for the rest of the weekend, not sure, lots of possibilities but.........

sad day.....

probably a little down about not being at Friends, but Bloomberg's announcement that he will seek a third term and the media's embracing of it is very sad. Continuous aggressive building? Is that even possible. Anyway, hope there is a groundswell of dissent and something happens to prevent Bloomberg's doing this. Still have a lot of hope; he has alienated a lot of people. Not much else, a lot to see this weekend, still will I make it to an NYMF; is it necessary? All will be revealed, Nice time at Heights Cafe Sunday, surprised at how much I enjoyed it. ...Later....

good news....

again, great day at Friends, then off to tutor Chelsea, this morning, turned down a few schools, when will I finally be able to overcome this? Listened to some of the statements from Senators in today's hearing---feel like I have a grip on the issues, but good to hear that the public is really outraged. Perhaps it takes something like this to turn things around. Go to work with Chelsea again, then probably visit Emma at Greenwich street...then........

interesting day

yesterday, finally allowed myself to see a movie: Moving Midway, which was very moving; it made me long to visit North Carolina and other parts of the south which I have not seen. After that, watched the game at South Fourth, then over to East River to hang out a bit with Erin, which was very nice. Can't wait till Monday, what happens before that a little bit open to question, crisis makes my money window a little more cautious, but how cautious can I be? All will be revealed in time, now off to Williamsburg......

so, where do we go.......

Three days of work next week at Friends, should be good, what about the financial crisis...how does that effect me? Have to wait and see. Good work with Chelsea, her father and teachers seem pleased, would like another student, though, have to work for it. Otherwise, probably will see a lot of South Fourth this weekend, maybe a movie, and Sharon's play (she is in it, I mean) tomorrow.

nothing particularly loud or......

definitely as you wished, but actually no one showed up. I had asked for something subdued, not invisible. But didn't matter, had a good time at South Fourth over the weekend. Saw Beast and enjoyed its vicious tone. Yesterday, a really good day at Friends, then strong enough to go to the Bronx to tutor CHelsea, returned to Manhattan feeling very sated and self-sufficient---hoping that I would be needed at Friends today, but will have to wait---three days of work next week is fine.

birthday, birthday......

had completely slipped my mind, as I try to figure out best strategy to see a play with Robin tomorrow afternoon at affordable prices. Will go to South Fourth again tonight for a kind of "mini' (i hope) party---nothing particularly loud or that calls attention to me----otherwise, still trying to counter my popularity at Friends with the lack of work, trying to remind myself that it is the first week, and that there will be work later on. Will sub for Tim on Monday---that should be fun. As for turning 65, well, that is what it is---vast expanse of memory at my disposal, everything else just normal. The rest is......

long trip......

Took the 21 bus yesterday, and refused (myself) to get off at usual 180 street station. So traveled on the bus down Boston Road and then Third Avenue until 149 Street. An incredible trip, even a working class neighborhood that is all black and hispanic seems very tranquil in the twilight. So the past always returns when I take that trip---seeing some of the buildings that are still left that the parents of my parents and others must have seen for the first time in the 1920's as they moved there, from the lower east side, Brownsville, wherever. Want to do more of that. Woke up today, feeling incredibly strong (no Brooklyn yesterday, just returned home and called cousin Carol (aka Cara), who seems to be very happy that she retired. Today will return to the Bronx to teach Chelsea, then probably off to Brooklyn to prepare for the birthday party tomorrow, that I really don't want. By the way, had a great day at Friends on Tuesday, really exhausted myself, but it was great to see my old ninth graders (now tenth graders) for an extended period of time. Want to get back soon, but must be patient.....Anyway, today I awoke and felt really strong, after the day at Friends, being exhausted, and then getting the rest, I guess I needed.

like yesterday.....

awoke with some trepidation---anger at hearing about the Fannie Mae and Freddy Mac buyout, Christ! I can't even get unemployment during the summer! But after having coffee, and thinking about plans for today, feeling much better. Still, these people are living a totally different life than you---more privileges...perhaps? Anyway, first stop, the Fordham library, thank God it is open, since the Internet cafe on Amsterdam was not opened yet. D-Train quiet this morning. How to get back.....not sure...? What about the rest of the day......we'll see..............

can it be.....

Got my picture taken today, as I received my reduced fare (thank goodness( metro card). Is that really me? Always had trouble accepting the way I look. Well, what can one do? What next? Well, will contact two city council members about term limits when I get back to the apartment. Really want to stop that. Probably go to South Fourth tonight. Tomorrowو

a long.....

yesterday, after eating at Greenwich Street Tavern, and hanging out with Emma, walked up Greenwich Street passed Canal, then switched to Hudson, and walked up to fourteenth street, then switched to eighth avenue and walked to 23rd. What a walk! Did not feel tired at all. Awoke at around three A.M. to find myself feeling very strong. Yes, walking is great, I love it!
Today will visit Chelsea at 4, but earlier won a lotto scratchoff ticket worth 12 dollars. So things are going well. Talked to Alvin this morning; he is very aware of how the mayor's frightening vision is effecting the city. Neighborhoods seem to be mobilizing more and more. Work....? We will see.....

so after

labor day! The third of the three holidays that bookend summer. Kind of happy---would like to get right back into the swing of teaching---have never felt that I have more to offer. Yesterday, visited Mickey and Edd for a cookout---(actually stayed inside and talked) got off at KIngs Highway, walked down the first few blocks of Quentin Road---beautiful! Reminded me of my neighborhood in the BRonx growing up---all those apartment houses---now mostly Russian or Orthodox, I think. A great walk---ah, Brooklyn, south of Prospect Park, how you haunt me! Possibly on Jewish holidays will take that bus down Bedford, from Midwood into Williamsburg.
Ate a lot yesterday, am still full...waiting for work now at FRiends, and have to see about DOE. TIme will tell itself.........

relaxed at last......

Thursday morning. As the weekend (long) approaches, feeling loose and relaxed. Had a really nice session with Chelsea yesterday, spoke to her reading teacher also, who seems impressed by what we have accomplished. Free day today, don't push it too much, will meet Mickey and Edd later today at Dojo. Got a call from Jamey at Friends yesterday re some days, so that should be coming through soon. Weekend should be fairly unstructured, will do a decent amount of wandering through the boroughs, stop off at few places, catch up etc. Some movies or plays....perhaps. Still long to wander through the Bronx, but wonder if that will be now or later.......

So finally

it is over--the Fringe that is, ended Sunday, went to the party on Sunday evening, talked alot with Nancy, Jennifer and her friend Tara---who seemed interested. (well, atleast for the evening). Had a nice day yesterday, then awoke today awash in pain, because the balance of the books did not still add up. That is, the 500.00 that I got from the Fringe is so little---so have to go into Credit again---no at all what I wanted, yet must do it. Other thing is the Bloomberg decision to try to overturn term limits, want to stop it as much as possible, talk to as many people, get into political blogs, etc.---there is enough sense that he is hurting the city, but the newspapers insist that he is "popular". How long will this go on? Anyway, want to do something about this---also, waiting for work--hope it comes soon. Not worried about choices for the evenings between now and labor day, already perhaps too many...but then again.....

another day....

last night almost lost it---well, not really, but so many obnoxious self entitled people at the Zombie show at the Fringe. Tonight I am anticipating another large group for Amish Project. If it is not sold out beforehand, there will be a lot of negotiating to do. Kestrel and Sassafras will be there for the 3:30 show, which should be good, and then the two shows from Chicago, which will probably be very easy box offices. Good conversation with Mary from Missing Man, which I hear is very good, yesterday (The conversation that is).
Looking forward to the end of the Fringe, and the return of my life to some normal choices about where to be in the evening. Can't believe it has been two weeks, also never thought that it would be so much work, but have met a lot of interesting people, always good for that.
But it will be nice to END, to have a little bit more time to myself.

can it be.....

four more days of the Fringe. Then free at last! There seem to be so many things I have missed, but ofcourse, this is something I wanted to do. Summer almost over...is that all...I guess for now.

a week later.....

I sit in the same library. What a week it has been! Simply hard work at the fringe, finally today a day off, in which I have just taught Chelsea (who is doing well, by the way). The work has been hectic, and I don't help myelf by not having a book to read, during my breaks, still I have had some very good interactions, met a lot of interesting people, and generally feel that this has all been worthwhile, even if it has taken away all of my "other" (by this you mean "hangout") life cityboy. Five more days of box office managing, since this break comes on sort of a "high", albeit a tired one, we can only imagine, what the next few days will bring. After that, bak to ther real world.

a little more....

relaxed today, as I sit here in the library in the Bronx near Chelsea's house. Tomorrow the FRinge begins, and that means a whole new world---very involved and very little time for much else. Good, I think I have had enough of my "freedom" ie lack of structure.
Yesterday went to Hubbard Dance , finally saw Kelly dance, she is very good as is the rest of the young company. Said hello afterwards, that was nice...and the visited Kim and the others at South Fourth. That too, will have to stop during the Fringe. Afterwards, well I have just a week before the school year begins, would like to visit Baltimore, but.......we will see.

cityboy has to....

run, only a few more minutes left on the computer---sitting in the Library in the Bronx, not far from Chelsea's house---was resistant to going there today, but went, and to my surprise, had a very good lesson, she is really doing very well---she should really be ready by beginning of school. Which reminds me.......check the opening week schedule please, cityboy, right after this! Also, had a good time on Saturday; went up to Vassar with Billy Strong (good to see him again) to see our friend Ned in a play by Joe Guilford. Very nostalgic play about his parents, Jack and Madelyn Guilford---he has really done a good job, very fulfilling afternoon---its future...? Who is to say. What else? Well the walk through Greenpoint yesterday was of interest, still have to control moods when I am by myself. Longing to walk on 173rd street in the Bronx. Why? Not sure, but it calls to me. Before or after Fringe...leave it for now.........

Good and bad.....

Sitting in a library not that far from where I was raised---after a lesson with Chelsea, who is improving. Feeling good---there is more money in the checking account then I thought yesterday, and have simple plans for the evening---to return home and probably go to Standings to watch a couple of games. Dinner with Carla and her husband tomorrow night---should be fun...so that is the good. The bad...well, the political, the building, the fact that an ogligarchy of businessmen seem to be determined to reappoint the mayor, meaning that there power is greater then mine (six votes to one vote). Bloomberg gets a crisis just in time to show his management skills---a way of claiming his importance to the city? But what of the building, with the city in a fiscal crisis, can all this aggressive building be maintained, and will Gottfriend and Kucinich continue to break down the Yankee Stadium deal? See how things shape up...........

exhilirated....

from last night---good time at Plan B, the Prospect Heights sports bar that I recently discovered. After a slow start, had some really good conversations. Will return there this weekend, atleast once, also have to decide if I want to see Trenton Thunder game in Trenton this weekend, this will probably b e my only chance to go before Fringe, which, as you know, will keep me very busy till almost the end of August. Still, a good baseball weekend, not sure of where I will be or what else I will do. Feeling good, probably the lack of humidity in the weather is helping as well. Anyway, let the weekend come......

Chelsea is

restless, a lot of fun, but hard to teach---I think she is making progress, but....have a bad stomach ache this morning into the afternoon, just let it slide, the appetite should revive itself, meanwhile tomorrow off, again to play or not to play (horses, that is) and maybe to see Catered Affair. Last night decided at the last minute to go to Bowery Poetry CLub to see O'Debra sister (diane) "curate" open mike. All sort of juvenile, and very poor comics, really poor. Ofcourse, you might try some of your own stuff, anyway, probably today will visit Emma at Greenwich Street Bar, and see what comes from that, tomorrow, Orientation for the Fringe, great, I really want to see where I will be working and with whom, everything changes, we will see......

in a....

cityboy left the house without shaving well this morning and so I hope that Chelsea does not notice it while we have her lesson---sitting in the library now on 145 street, too late to return to home and shave again, so must deal with it--actually, I don't think it will be a problem.
Feeling raw this morning, wanted to use the internet space on Amsterdam for some privacy, but at 10:30 was not opened, perhaps I will return there after Chelsea's lesson. Yesterday wandered around Brooklyn, had some interesting walks on both Nostrand and Bedford Avenue, that armory is enormous, but what will be the effect of moving all the homeless there, if indeed it happens. Just another example of Bloomberg's core insensitivity. Anyway, lasted long enough to see the movie at BAM, Gordon-Green's Snow Angels, wonder why he made it, so maddeningly bleak---no redemption, am getting really rawed out at movies, should not hold myself back from seeing plays in the three weeks or so that I have before the Fringe, and my job there, starts. But I am tough on myself money wise, you know that...tonight will hang out at Standings with Mike, Jeff, Ryan and the others, if they show, after that, if there is an after......?

cityboy is...

sick with disgust, having read that a Quinnipac pole gives the Mayor over 50 percent approval for a third term. Who are these people interviewing. does not this become a political tool in and of itself. Horrendous! And what of "mike and mike' going to the white house in a totally "non-political" event. Is there such a thing? where do you draw the line? This was to be a beautiful, non-work filled day, now there is a pall over it. how political should one be? Cityboy wants meaningful discussion on all this...is it possible.....?

what a day......

after a good lesson with Chelsea, returned to Manhattan, and was greeted by a tunafish on a bagel sandwich for $6.77. But my rage abated after meeting George Marcy on the 104, which I would not have taken had not I eaten the bagel. God, the man can talk at you like crazy...hey, but he is Goerge, the second Bernardo of WSS's original cast, and now he seems to hang out a lot with Jamie Sanchez (CHino).Maybe I will get a chance to talk to them, and get some interesting info re the original. Anyway, somewhat exhilirated by the meeting---things seem to be going well, hope my apartment was cleaned adequately (it usually is), won some lotto, and will visit Emma this evening at Greenwich Street Beer House (not really it's name).

a trip down.....

Nostrand Avenue, by bus and foot. Took bus from Williamsburg Plaza after an afteroon at south Fourth---saw where all the Polish streets---Kosciosko and the other (I'm blocking) begin--still find that fascinating. Got off at Bergen and walked South to Eastern Parkway. Easy walk, lots of people out, the neighborhood still seems mostly Caribbean---very few places to go into. Then took the subway to Prospect Heights and went to Plan B to watch baseball (what else?) Still enjoy these trips, somewhat relieved that Chelsea canceled for today (It is her birthday) but will see her tomorrow. Want to enjoy the passivity of today---no tasks or whatever. Rejuvenate my body, and will find out how Kim enjoyed Damn Yankees later today.

cityboy canceled....

well not canceled, but woke up today and felt that it was impossible to make another trip to the Bronx (this would have been my fifth this week) in the heat. Probably four lesssons a week with Chelsea is too much, three is better, since she is five and a half, never quite know how much I have accomplished with her. This weekend, the usual, the potpourri of choices etc as to what to see or do. Plenty of places to visit...then again, will I ever see a movie, and what if any play to see tonight.....remember, no work tomorrow, so can stay out relatively late if I wish......

it is long and hot......

it is a long and hot trip to the tip of the northeast Bronx to work with Diamond, but it was worth it; had a very good session with her, and it looks like I may be working with her most of the summer. That is good, a bit of a financial relief, which is a little strange, but a good feeling. Tomorrow, back to Chelsea, a little bit south of there a little easier trip, still it is hard taking these trips in the heat. Otherwise, hoped to see Diana Sands' movie, the Landlord at BAM tonight, but too tired, just enough energy to make it here (the computer place) this evening; had to get out of the apartment, much too hot and muggy. Anyway, see what the next few days and weekend will bring........

cityboy is....

played out. Exhausted emotionally---would like to turn it all off. Several web sites to visit or a fes messages to send, but want to wait. Just came from a good session with Chelsea, tomorrow I start with Diamond in the north Bronx, so that should be good. Tonight will visit Emma at bar-restaurant on Greenwich and Beach---Greenwich Street Tavern---I liked the place the first time I visited there...and then maybe hang with Andrew at 119, to watch the end of the Giant-Met game. And then.........

brooklyn, bronx, and.......

saw part of Natalie's scene on the legally blonde mtv thing----she is great, great dancer, but the whole thing......shows you how far we have come from the 40's, where I began. Anyway, yesterday, found myself standing outside Aunt Lil's old apartment house, where we would visit her on the holidays and make that long trip from the Bronx. Really liked walking around there, still is something very different about the neighborhood----apart, you know. Also travelled on the 13 bus to the Bronx, down Ogden avenue, to outside "new" Yankee Stadium---which, ironically enough, is right accross the street from apartment houses, wonder what that means, the current Stadium isolated from the neighborhod by the highways to the west and the subway to the east---no such isolation here, the people living across the street will see people walking to and from the stadium. Ramifications....? Will Yankee execs want to live there...? Higher rent prices, greater land values.....who benefits, how much change...and for who....? That is the question. Meanwhile "art" gets more ludicrous and the gap between certain kinds of art grows wider and wider. See what happens tonight at Some Americans Abroad...rest of the day kind of quiet...not that much baseball, we'll see......

what to do.....

cityboy is still struggling over the money issue, going over how much to spend and on what many times in my(His) head. Wrote down 14 (that is right, 14) possible plays to see, at reasonable prices, but always want to stop and see how much I can hold on to. Still, the streets of NY beckon---some interesting trips through the Bronx might be possible today, or the plays, or Brooklyn-----but, ofcourse everything will be at the last minute for Cityboy. Yesterday, did, as expected, spend the afternoon at South Fourth where I gorged myself on the cookout, (still the franks were great) then returned home, then off to MOMA, where I got in free, and is now run like some cold frightening institution from 1984. Still, was able to see Cassavetes' Too Late Blues, a tough and somewhat interesting movie from the early sixties, with Bobby Darin, who has great charisma. Yes, the possibilities are endless---would enjoy visiting the bar called Plan B, where I had a good time last Saturday evening, but for today...........later cityboy!

what next cityboy

had a brilliant lesson with Alex this morning, wondering whether we should work on the holiday tomorrow, when Lewis, his uncle gave me the news: Alex is returning to Florida tomorrow; our lessons are over. So what about income, cityboy? You had expected another 100 dollars from this, which you really needed. what now? Still, feel rather calm and collected as I figure this out---should I deprive myself or allow myself the culture I wante?....Well, that is what we must find out............

have decided....

have decided to chill regarding plays or movies for today, but did get a ticket for Some Americans Abroad for Sunday evening, nice to see Anthony again. Otherwise a good lesson with Alex, nice walk around the Heights, and will probably go out to South Fourth tonight, or possibly to Plan B, the restaurant bar I kind of enjoyed on Saturday evening located on Vanderbuilt Avenue in Prospect Heights.
Lots of movies to see, if plays are not possible, still trying to realize how much money I will have to spend pre- Fringe, which is quite a few weeks away still. No horse racing today, a little gun shy, and turned off by it; maybe Saturday or Sunday. Yesterday evening at Standings, immersed myself in baseball for about three hours, makes sense, hard but fascinating watching three or four games at a time. Felt valid about it this morning, so we go on.......

yesterday....

far more relaxed then Sunday, made the right move visiting Kim at South fourth and staying for the ball game yesterday evening. Still tutoring Alex, although Chelsea's dad has canceled for the week---which means I am free from about 11:30 on. Right now figuring out what to do once I leave the library---tired, a little, possibly go to the ball game at TRenton, that would be a trip, or perhaps other options. Need some coffee, bad.. what about the shows and movies....we'll see........

another death.....

Just heard from Robin about her oldest brother Frank, who died on Memorial Day weekend. Never met him---he was an airforce pilot---very sad. Otherwise, a long night last night, but got through it---took a walk down Amersterdam at 1A.M. last evening (Sunday) Amazing how many people were still in the several bars that dot the avenue. Did not go in, even though I saw a woman sitting alone in the bar on 83rd Street. I couldn't; stomach was still full---better stay away from cupcakes. Otherwise, long and dogged walks in yesterday's sun---ran right into Gay Pride parade (or tale end of it) as I was hitting the subway---made it through the crowd and got home. Totally tired, but feeling better now. Lucky to be tucked away in a quiet, small traffic part of the city---otherwise---anyway, had a good lesson with Alex today, also finished reading Jhumpa Lahiri's short story "nobody's business", blew me away---feeling mellow right now, will probably get a hair cut.......

about the poet....

Enid Dame---read about her going up on the subway to tutor Alex (who is improving by the way; I am very pleased about this). She was born in June of 43; died in December 03. Seems to write very strong and serious poetry; interesting that she was in Towson State while I was at Hopkins---could I have known her....? Or anyone that I knew....,? Why does that seem important now.....? anyway, missed Almost Maine yesterday, really angry about that, yet solved dit by going into Prospect Heights, found Plan B a nice friendly baseball bar----but filled with (it appears) the usual suspects---still, a good place to know and perhaps to return to...then the journey, down Vanderbilt to DeKalb (remember this is from Vanderbheilt and Park Place) ---first time seeing the area dark---some really beautiful houses and spaces there...then DeKalb to South Oxford, to Lafayette (long block) then Lafayette passed BAM and finally boarding the Nevins Street subway back to East 14 street. Body felt really strong this morning, because of the walk---also two smoothies. This is an interesting week for baseball---some really important games (thank god interleague play is over!) and some chances to visit Trenton...well we will see.

A strange day........

Strange because there is no tutoring today; so the day is mine---which means what..? Brooklyn, Standings, South fourth, baseall all day...a movie, a play....? The wanderer. Feeling both exhilirated and depressed, had a good time with Natalie on Wednesday.....saw John Byrne yesterday on the train, he was really great but...dealing with the Supreme Court Gun Decision, and also with the horror of the Bloomberg administration here...the oppressiveness...incredible!
So where do we go from here...to talkin broadway.....a trip to the DC area....who can say, just bought my first stock in a long while, see what comes of that...baseball I guess today, and if I am bored, a movie or a visit to a music bar or maybe feast on Ms. Lahiri's short stories, or.........

still no

still no word from Friends, re my request for a little more work---what will happen...? Anyway, had a very good session with Alex today; he seems to be reading much better---I really enjoy being "in the heights"---good feeling from the people in and around his building. Lots of things to see this weekend, what will I get to? Do I want to see one more Balanchine program, or the Brick Theater's film play things? And what about Top Girls....? Time will tell.

on the moment.....

well, tomorrow morning is the phone call that you have been waiting for. What will Karan say, and what will you ask for, cityboy. Just a chance to be at the school and participate a bit more. Help out in the learning center---you could do that. Will it happen?That was before all this tutoring happened, which is tiring, but will help out a lot. Certainly enjoy traveling around Washington Heights, love the buildings that I pass, really bring back great memories and feelings. Otherewise, gave up my chance to go to Trenton today, it is David's birthday, and also I have to talk to the SETS teacher for Chelsea. Will see Zack's play tonight...stay tuned.....

so what now.....

received a phone call from Odalis (from Karen's office) yeterday afternoon---nice message-will finally get my interview, but this morning I found out it would be by phone. What can you suggest, cityboy? Well, could help out at learning center, ironically enough, that was my fantasy about making myself more useful by doing off the cuff tutoring, wonder if that will be accepted...? Really could use a little more consistency re time there, that is all I want, not more income per se. Well, we'll find out....Otherwise, again so many conflicts re what to do this weekend---wanted to see Cat on a Hot Tin Roof, but now....should see some movies, etc., but...all v ery elusive, you know. Had a nice walk down Wadsworth Avenue after Alex canceled--would like to wander around Brooklyn listening to music some time tomorrow, but the picnic in Central Park----unexpected you know---and hate to go into a movie on a nice day---so, your move, dude........

Finally---

not much time today---so, finally made the phone call to FRiends--no response yet; somewhat sorry I did it---maybe should have left well enough alone, yet when I am there, feels silly that I am still "spaced" by dates. Anyway, many members of the faculty, urged me to contact administration, and after some ambivalence (which was stated here before), I did. Otherwise, a weekend of ups and downs, the plays at EST were really dissappointing---yesterday's afternoon walk from the Brooklyn Museum was interesting, found the Frank White cafe on Atlantic Avenue, a real no man's land---yet very nice, wonder how long it will remain.? Also walked dowon Fulton to Franklin--and a bit back---took the A train back to BAM. Well, will stay home tonight and make some things clear about tutoring......later......

Saturday morning....

couldn't get myself to see a movie yesterday, so just waited it out, and went to south fourth in the late afternoon----Jenny was gland to see me---as usual walked a lot before going back on L train----this afternoon, will probably go to EST to see the one acts---wish I was being comped, but am not, so will pay it; somehow I feel it is important to go today---this afternoon, to see this group of plays, so I will----this evening.....? Still no action on the Friends thing---everyone glad to see me at Cornelia Street Thursday evening, will probably make the call (and attempt) on Monday Morning, after the TONY party at South Fourth. Just finished reading another story by Jhumpa Lahiri---they really get to me---I don't know how she does it---the awareness is amazing. The parents she draws in some ways remind me of my own---standards, virtues, shortcoming, whatever...well, here goes.........

can you.....

Promised myself I would contact Friends about enlarging my role, this morning, and ofcourse, did not do it. So, here I wait in this kind of odd zone-----somehow I can't make a move to ask for more time at Friends, even after all I have accomplished there. Well, maybe there is no rush---maybe after seeing Ron write and talking to some people this evening, I will be able to do this tomorrow, but why I am so incapable of moving on it?....Simply don't know. Can't enter the "aggressive" zone. Well, soon it will be off to Chelsea and then to Cornelia Street Cafe (my old haunt) and then to....who knows? Would like to relax and drown myself in movies (several look very interesting) or plays or whatever. But have to get this monkey off my back...don't want to contact Diane....yet! We will see what happens.

Quite a weekend--huh,

cityboy....? Washington DC---hot, hot, hot! Yet managed to move around by foot most of Saturday--including that hideously long walk from Metro Center to Kalorama Guest House, two miles atleast? That evening, nothing to do---excited by the movement in the neighborhood, should have been too tired to go out, but saw that it would be impossible to sleep, if I were not completely tired. So walked endlessly around the neighborhood, really consisting of two different aspects: the strip---down 18street, many bars and places to eat; all looked kind of garish, not feeling like a drink---so walked up and down alot, finally ended up having a sandwich at Subways--actually kind of good tunafish! Then the hotel itself sits in an area to the left of the strip, that is residential---some beautiful houses around the block--wonder if they are co-ops or full houses----finally sat and read at Starbucks on the corner from like 10 to 11--(not really as oridinary as it seems, this Starbucks attracted more than its share of young women and was pretty crowded). After that returned to guest house exhausted, and really had no trouble sleeping, atleast until 5:30 A.M., which was a relief. A really good breakfast, the place offered everything, and then off to the game with Bob. Returned to Union Station, hung out, changed my ticket to an upgrade (which I felt was important) and returned home.
Thought I would not make the Coney Island trip with language department from Friends, but actually did, and enjoyed it. Had never eater at Tatiana's on the beach. Really liked it----though I never really go out there. Perhaps will take some friends, but who knows.
Graduation fun--said my goodbyes to several students who I am very fond of, but missed some I really liked, like Cherly W, Carrie, Sarah, Zannie, Nate and Noah (who I go all the way back with to his fifth grade). Hope that I do get a chance to see them before they leave to college.
Woke up very warm this morning---slept a bit, counsled tutoring Chelsea, too many risks of the subway blacking out,) and will just wait for the diiner with the Friends Group.

do you

do you ever get tired, cityboy? Tomorrow off to DC, museum hopping, some fun (who knows what?) in the evening, and then on Sunday the visit to Nationals Stadium. Hectic, for after late return on Sunday, have to visit Coney island on Monday morning, and then the graduation. Well, today, tutoring Chelsea one more time before the trip, and then, probably just relaxing at South Fourth, though that might be amended, after I see how I feel. Would like to be on the train as early as 7A.M. tomorrow morning, so that I could get into DC at noon or thereabouts.
Yesterday, prior to tutoring Chelsea, visited Bob's old neighborhood--took bus up Prospect, crossesd Crotona Park, got off at 175 street, took in the whole thing, possibly saw Bob's old apartment building, now it looks like it is a homeless half way house, but the area was very quiet---felt quite safe, lots of private houses around, may have been around when Bob was there, or may have been built in the interim---first time I had really traveled those streets, then stood outside PS 44 for what must have been five minutes, saw no one, that is the school my mother taught in as I was growing up---remember a wonderful day I spent there, a Jewish holiday when my mother took me to school; school was quiet, only Spanish kids were there (where did they live, in what part of the school zone?) everyone made a fuss over me---remember it with great pleasure, now finally seeing the school again, sort of blew me away.
The people in the area, on the bus seem into themselves, not hostile at all----felt exhilirated after the visit---as if I had given myself a great challenge and came through it. wonder what Bob (who I am visiting in DC) will think of it? We will see.

much excitement...

at Friends, yesterday is my actually teaching day there this year (or should I say proctoring day). Saw Charlie Brown there last night---very impressed with how open the kids were, everyone looked relaxed and there was a sureness about the staging that was very impressive---considering it was a first performance it is amazing how clear everything came out. Next week the graduation and the faculty dinner---the first that I have been invited to. Yes, Cityboy, you seem to be peaking in a way, yesterday after the play, went to Standings, was surprised that Mike expressed that I wasn't coming there that often, things have changed---need the warmth that South Fourth offers me-----but who knows. For the most part, as I enter the summer, things seem very secure----should have fun---will enjoy the Washington trip this weekend, but wish the city was better, and Bloomberg's charter revision---sincerely hopes this doesn't happen. Will go to NY Times now, and get reader response to the article.........

Thursday.....

Really great day yesterday at Friends, can't wait till tomorrow, left there feeling very up relaxed about spending today off---that's good, on Tuesday, returning home from tutoring Chelsea, read thes second story in Ms. Lahiri's collection; very strong, I was totally moved by it; it is a perfect example of structure that is strong, and feelings that are meaningful. I don't know how exactly she does it, but her insight into loneliness, sex, etc. is teriffic. After tutoring Lena, simply went to the park (Bryant) watched the baseball game on the big TV, and wondered home, stopped off at Playwrights Tavern to have a beer, but was pretty put off by the place, a surly bartender and not really anyone to talk to...but you have to try it. Rest of the day after tutoring Chelsea not clear, possibly South Fourth, or maybe Sound and Fury, so much to do, so little........

Miss Lahiri"s.....

Miss Lahiri's short story brings up a lot of feelings for me; moody, lachrymose, beautifully articulated...also about family and age....what happened last night? Collapse, both physical and yet seemingly emotional, overwhelmed by what.....? choices, an enormous walk through Fort Greene and some of Bed Stuy-----anniversary of.....? Still, recovered nicely this morning, met Yulia, collected my fee, had an interesting conversation, now an interesting walk---later ball game and cookout, and finally....? the play, or maybe it will be better to watch Mets vs. Marlins---subway ride to Juniors, in last car of the R train---just one other person and myself......other things....what?

spent the morning.........

at Heights Cafe; nice meal, Annie there, conversations with Danny and Mark et. al; nice to see Nancy again; she really is a good person---then the walk across Fort Greene, the bus ride down Bedford, and the landing at South Fourth, more good conversation, watching baseball, but you know what, I am played out, tired, need a release, does this mean I should check out a play, maybe a movie, here is where it gets complicated...(or atleast by definition. I am sure life is far more complicated for others) fun at theparty at TEAM, but everythng ends........

last night and this morning....

just got a rush for Sunday in the Park---finally decided to see a play---good for you, cityboy! Tonight the party for the TEAM---gonna be fun---the rest of the weekend, who is to say...?
Memorial day here so soon again, the first weekend of the summer-still tremendous changes this year---I think!
Yesterday after tutoring Chelsea, had to fight with myself not to get off at 174 street and either walk around, or take Boston Road bus to 149 street, but did get off to switch to 5 train, and my eyes followed Boston Road south---amazing--could have closed my eyes and imagined the early fifties, the all Jewish neighborhood---whenever I travel feel that need to explore the whole Bronx, Brooklyn, whatever---anyway, the day contiunes and we will see what happens.

feeling satisfaction

nice and easy today, going to be warm, and I will be going to the Bronx to tutor this afternoon, felt a sense of luxury about the weekend, after tutoring I will probably go to South Fourth, after that, who knows, may spend a lot of time there...the party on Saturday night should be fun, after that.......plenty of time to cruise around, if that is what I wish to do.

annoyed......

Cityboy missed another interview; that is what you get for not having a computer, but maybe we can work it through for tomorrow, anyway, wish that I could go there now and do the interview, rather than use the computer, but....sort of impossible at this moment. Other than that, I was feeling good, sort of like doing nothing today, letting it all air out---possibly a movie, now I even feel blocked about that, will go to meeting of subs this afternoon, then maybe a movie or back to South Fourth---oh yes, had a good time there last night, might go back again, and slept fairly well last evening, no cold impediment, think that that is over----anyway, we will see...maybe more clarity this weekend, cityboy.

angry at.....

froze last night, even if we got heat in the early evening-----now feeling okay, but still a slight head ache which I think is from that----should I call again and ask that heat be atleast put on slightly for the early part of the morning? So passive when it comes to that...then received a call from Humana asking me to join their drug program....feel like I am being exploited...so here I am. But other things are good---seems like there will be lots to do this weekend; wonder if I will see any plays, or whatever----city seems odd, constantly reading about people with no money, spending less and less, but at the same time, everything seems crowded...where do you go with that? Later at South Fourth........

saturday....somewhat annoyed....

A little frustrated, I guess by the appointment of Diane Paulus as head of ART, but really what do you expect? Lighten up cityboy, then read about Emily Mann's version of Seagull at Princeton, something I could certainly see-----sounds interesting, if they got it right...well so many things to check out, have to go slowly, huh cityboy---what else, a couple of more days at Friends---a lot of ideas going through my head...still not sure about this evening, what about that Rosemary Woods play...? Possible...? Otherwise, just might stay at South Fourth or the baseball bar before visiting with Bob and Harold.......

easy day for

an easy day (today, Wednesday) for cityboy, with only two classes. Well, I guess you deserve it, since you worked hard yesterday and the day before. So what else is new? Not much, invited to the middle school concert this evening at Friends, but don't think I will be able to go---I am supposed to tutor Lena at that time----was interviewed by marielle T. yesterday---my recollections of the tenor of the times of the "sixties", the anti-war fervor---counter culture whatever---sad, to see what it has turned into---and how little power I have to change it---still, it is nice to know one can give the best of oneself to people. Tutoring tonight probably means that I will see Frank's piece tomorrow----that should work out, also might have a free day tomorrow, is that possible....? first in six days, wonder if I will really make use of it...still debating as to whether I will go to Washington DC over the memorial day weekend, plenty of reason to go, but still, enough to do around here, and then it also depends on how much money I earn next week---unanswered questions galore....anyway, we will continue.......

worked hard....

worked hard on Friday....yesterday, most of the time at South fourth, then said hi to Bobby and Henry at their respective watering holes---today, pretty tired, visited and hung with Patrick at south fourth, pleasant--then the B61 to vanderbuilt and park, and then the vanderbuilt ave bus to the library. Three days in a row (short) at Friends starting tomorrow---moving towards Memorial Day, kind of amazing---good conversation with Nacho yesterday, and great to hear Leo play at the concert Saturday afternoon. Couldn't stay for Brahms second---much too heavy for the early afternoon, also acoustics for Church great for small orchestra, but a bit too heavy for the Brahms. Body in a kind of torpor....see what the rest of the day will bring with it....

in ten minutes....

I begin five classes in a row. Busy, busy, huh cityboy. What else since Tuesday? Well. lots of energy---saw Camelot last night, woke up thinking about it today, still very much a part of my past---can' shake it---this weekend, innumerable things to do (and bars to visit) in NY. What will cityboy do? Can't say--well, better prepare for work..........................

three days later....

Tuesday---the one day of the week with no subbing---and strangely enough I feel played out, sort of empty---annoyed at the lack of structure---oh well, tomorrow, plenty of work---yesterday at the tutoring for Chelsea, interrupted by two black kids who wanted something from Kevin, Chelsea's older brother, aged 11---I chased them away---very forceful, but was nervous that they might confront me afterwards--did not happen--still, should I have to tutor under those circumstances? And then there is Chelsea, herself, she is becoming more manipulative--and I feel there is less that I can teach her---less that she wants to absorb----last night, went to Standings after the tutoring, okay, but no one to react to---maybe should have gone into Brooklyn:
Sunday, after taking that incredible bus trip through Tompkins Avenue and after that New York Avenue, I arrive on New York and Eastern Parkway---land that I might have been raised in, had my parents taught in Brooklyn---think about the play that I might conceive (write is too "pompous")that would take place in two time frames----think about taking that trip on the Brooklyn 16, the one that would actually take me through Brownsville and East New York. Would that really free something in me? Should it be necessary?
It is at moments like these I become obsesses with "the journey" and the values of my generation---and what that engenders. Still can't get off the 2 train, and explore Bob Rosenblatt's old block, but would like to...see where all this goes...today later into Williamsburg---definitely!

cityboy is....

tired...after yesterday's five period adventure at Friends. What next? Well, let's face it---you are in the maelstrom, cityboy, and you have got to ride it out. Your job, your life, is revolving around Friends, and whatever you are too tired to do afterwards, or whether you are just too played out afterwards, is just too bad. But actually quite exhilirated by all the work, and the upcoming marathons as well. Today canceled one tutoring session, then the other tutoree called in sick. So here I am with time on my hands, but not that interested in running to the Tribeca Film Festival---think I will just take it easy---find some poems for John's class on Monday, and finally go down to South Fourth for the late afternoon---kentucky derby energy---perhaps Dafna will meet me there; she might enjoy having the place to hang out. Tomorrow, still too much to do; may go from South Fourth to city museum---sound interesting....? we'll see.....

better yet....

Wednesday morning at 6:A.M.,; no work---planning on a (not so comfortable) no work week. But Sarah S. calls at 6:40, asking me to take two of her classes, by the time the day is over, I have four more days---so things are looking up. Much more relaxed, huh cityboy? Plus, let's face it---you really like having structure, simply don't want to deal with the "Rawness" (for want of a better word) of not working. Anyway, "celebrated", if that is the right word for it, by going to City Ballet, celebrated Robbins with an all Balanchine program. Recognizable, but basically enjoyed it, no hanging out after that...now back at Friends for a two period day, with the rambunctious seventh graders, then off to work with Chelsea, then perhaps, South Fourth.

the weekend, two...

perfpormances of Pippin at Friends---you might say I am all Pippined out. Did not work today---dissappointed---an no calls from the DOE--wonder if that will continue. Weekend was not much more besides the two performances, yesterday a fairly simple day which ended (adequately) at South Fourth Think I will attempt to see one of the Tribeca early afternoon movies this afternoon. Much to read in the times...see what happens....

did exactly that...

spent an hour at Standings, but find now seven screens a little too much---also got hungry--stomach good for only one beer---today I will visit with my friends, Jeannine, Adam and Bobby at 119. had an interesting time listening this morning (no work) to the Mozart 563, also a nice e-mail from John in NJ about west side story casting (from 1957) gave him a long reply, will be interesting to see what he says. Beautiful day so I had to go to Brooklyn, ideal with no tutoring today, tomorow back at Friends for the day, then first of two performances of Pippin. We''ll see....

the two days....

The two days at Friends were tougher and longer than I had expected, due particularly to the overly rambunctious 5th and 6th graders I had to deal with. Still, fun, and I am looking forward to going back there on Friday. On Sunday, I wrote about being torn between Civilians and South Fourth, turns out I did neither. Civilians were over on Saturday---found out when I got to the Box Office, and since I did not desire to rush for Little Flower, I walked over to the Angelica and saw the first part (left because I was bored) of Blueberry Nights. Then, too tired to take the trip to Williamsburg, decided to try a new coffee place on the Bowery and read, which turned out all right, but nothing exceptional.
Today is first day off---many options in terms of what to see, or why, again, in the face of all the poverty and tightness of the dollar and higher cost of living that everyone (including me) experiences, there are more art choices then ever. Tough to figure out. Well, if I don't tutor today, might be time for another trip to Brooklyn, or I might enjoy simply hanging out at Standings, where I can immerse myself in Basball for a few hours.

two days later......

well, things seem to be working out...two fun days tomorrow and tuesday at Friends, a good time, (really an exciting time) at Friday's benefit, really glad that I came...then yesterday, even though tired, was able to tutor my two five and a half year olds, then go to the Seder at Kayla and Stan's. Nice, if very different time. Tonight...possibly South Fourth, but seized with the desire to see the Civilians at the Public, if there are any tickets left...wonder if there are...seems like I am torn between an immediate experience at South Fourth, and a "passive" theater experience. Oh well, tomorrow after Friends, begin my "experience" with Yulia and her research, back out to Prospect Heights....and then.......

what is it with you, cityboy.....

what is it with you cityboy, that you reject work at a decent (we presume) middle school, today, and instead, at 10:00 A.M. find yourself in the Brooklyn Public Library, writing away at the computer. So what is new? well, a nice evening at South fourth street last night, restless, as usual, wanted to stay out, but didn't, still slept adequately--met an interesting photographer there named Alonzo, also from Manhattan, before, visited jeannine at her new work space, Trash bar, love the smell of beer, and the coziness of it, but the prices-well it just goes on. Anyway, tonight the benefit, tomorrow the two students and then Passover with my cousins, whose apartment house, incidentally, i just passed, and Sunday, perhaps a take it easy day, before my two days (and more I hope) at Friends.
reading Brooklyn was Mine, a group of essays by literate writers about moving to Brooklyn and living there--they are reflective, warm, sometimes assume a kind of privilge, but what I need right now. May place one or two bets at OTB this afternoon, that's all......

a little dissed by Frank.....

got his e-mail; is he angry at me because I felt the 30.00 for the benefit is kind of steep? Well, I will go anyway---shouldn't let the fun elude me; actually looking forward to it.
Good session with Chelsea yesterday in the Bronx, felt very strong, afterwards, came home, sleepy, did not with to do much---had a nice conversation with her teacher---interesting how at home I am in this world......enjoy making the trip to and from the Bronx, feel infected by the past as I go...stand up during the time the train travels above ground, have to look out the window, looking for something...what.....a million stories that link together past and present. Otherwise, no work today---felt optimistic most of morning, will hope that there is work for me tomorrow at 163---also, have to check check dates for this pay period, my hope is to go to South Fourth this evening, and maybe visit also Jeannine at Trash...miss the place...let's go....

It's been a long time....

actually 5 days since last post. Filled with activity. Two really great days at Friends---really wanted to work there today, but no one called---turned down 163--wonder if there is work for me there on Friday.....anyway, will go to Team benefit on Friday, and Passover Seder on Saturday---also the tutoring seems strong---will go again to the Bronx today to work with Chelsea---bright girl, quite a challenge to help her---maybe speak to her teacher tonight---other than that...well, the buiding situation in the city seems to be getting worse and worse---so many walkways destroyed, but breathed a sigh of relief when Bloomberg stated that he was not interested in a third term----was very upset by the rumor that was sparked in the Post. Anyway, back to Friends atleast on Monday---other than that...let's go cityboy.........

thursday......

here I sit in the brooklyn public library---it is just past 11 a.m.; after, back to Manhattan, then off to the Bronx to hopefully help a young woman (age 5) on her letter pronouncement, and then, finally back to Brooklyn again, to south fourth (I think). Lots of traveling, but then you are cityboy. What else! Not much, Jeannine is gone from south fourth, but she will be at trash soon, not much happened of import yesterday, can't believe that it has only been two days since my last day at Friends, there tomorrow for Monica, and then for Carla M (Hopkins graduate) on Monday. the rest.........

so much going on....

cityboy is swamped! Alot going on---saw Homecoming last night, had a wonderful time with my nicece, Natalie, the first protracted time we have ever spent together---really had fun---she seems to really know what she is doing---today no work, but got a call to tutor in the Bronx---a four (or five) year old girl; can it be possible! She needs help in her English speaking (I assume) so I guess I just talk to her---other than that, times at Friends on Friday and Monday, and then the next week, will be busy---wonder if I will work anywhere else---can I get work at 163 on Friday, 4/18? that is the question---tonight, (I think) tutoring at Lena's then off to South Fourth...and then.......

Three days later....some good and

some bad......well, not really bad, but strange morning with a very silent 11th grade, in Spanish. They really can change...ofcourse it is a difficult time for them, feeling college board pressures, and visiting colleges for the first time---plus classes, but still strange for me.
Today I hang with my niece, Natalie, after I finish subbing---will show her the Robbins exhibit, wonder if she really knows how close she is to Lincoln Center library...then, after that....maybe a play or out to Williamsburg, have not visited South fourth since the excitement Thursday---maybe back there later today, or something else........

doing well....

Hey, you know, I slept like a baby last night--no kidding---can't remember when I have gotten a more peaceful sleep. Guess my mind is cleared, now that I have had one day at Friends, and it looks like more will be coming....four days without work simply were the first four days back from a two week vacation....so all of a sudden I am more relaxed. Today, tutored Ashly, a six year old with serious reading problems---she really has trouble with simple word identification---terrific challenge---just to get her to recognize rhyming words is difficult, how will she be able to absorb non-rhyming, same sounding words....I don't know, it will be a challenge, see what I can do---she really needs a more comprehensive course---almost daily work, but I will try my best. Just placed my bet on the Wood Memorial--only one bet---it would be nice to do a whole afternoon, like the old days, but at this point, does not seem possible, or maybe I have just too many optionss, or too many other things seem interesting. Lasted one full act that the Gambler, last night---opulence for the ear, very fascinating, but simply was too tired...see what happens re other opera choices the rest of the year.

Nice day....

In the nick of time, got a job at Friends---so you see, turning down allthose DOE sites to sub was not so counterproductive after all. Nice to be back---hectic day---some behavior that I did not like, but got through it, and it was good to see everyone again. Wanted to see Richard's concert tonight with Colin Davis, but no senior tickets--will see The Gambler, instead, though with partial view, not surewhat the effect will be---anyway, a little more relaxed re finances---will probably only handicapp one race tomorrow---tutoring in the morning---here goes.....

a little regret....

Thursday: reading the Times article on the two boys who wrote Glory Days---felt a little sad that the environment for young people seems to be much more open then it was in 64 when I graduated Hopkins. Was my work there that good? Was the Purification (a one act written by Tennessee Williams in his pre-Streetcar days) passionate and unique? Somehow felt sadly stifled, after reading the article and their chance. Strange, because this morning I was feeling very mellow, sort of in charge of things---had a nice time at South Fourth yesterday watching the game and being part of the community, and an even better time tutoring Lena at her house. Also, glad that Kim liked my April Fools article about Anthony and Adam alternating roles on the Rent tour. Felt secure enough to even consider going to a movie today, in the afternoon, but think I will table that. But basically feel like I am moving towards the summer in good form.....

he loves to travel.....

So this morning, cityboy took matters into his own hands, and wanting a break from his normal non-substsituting routine, took the 3 to the L to the M, to discover Ridgewood. Never been there before, outside of Bushwick, had a very normal, small town almost, relaxed quality---but there wa a reason for this. Since he is getting computer calls from atleast two schools in Ridgewood, he figured he might go there and see a little of them for himself, or atleast figure out how to get there, should he ever accept their invitation to sub. Both trips were satisfactory---spoke to a few teachers on the run, who assured me that the children in these 6 to 8 grade schools, were "reasonably" well behaved. Now there is that word: reasonably---it has a large scope, could mean anything from easy to handle, to prone to start fights unless they are on a long leash. Anyway, got good vibes from both, atleast now I know how to get there...sort of demystify the vision of the place.
Not much else to report---will tutor Lena this evening, then off to South Fourth, (too tired to go there, yesterday) and then.......

cityboy is restless.....

and can you blame him? Yesterday was good----game watching at South Fourth, a real good theater talk with Kim, and a nice talk with Mary D, whom I met on the way home. But inbetween...? Bloated myself on Chicken in noodle soup on Third Avenue. Really good, but far too heavy...then fall asleep at 9, only to wake up at 1:00 A.M. Still full, so no sense going out---then just staying up (impossible to fall asleep) until about 4. Ofcourse when the one or two calls came to sub this morning, it was impossible to take them.....slept until 7:45A.M., now here it is, a few hours later, still feel bloated, not quite sure where the focus of the day is...will wait it out until about 6:30,then go over to South Fourth to watch Yankee game, then try not to be so careful about returning home (unless you have work)---maybe you need to stay out till one o'clock to sleep better. We'll see.........

How about it cityboy........

Baseball today! Good for you---spend the whole afternoon at South Fourth watching the Yankees and maybe the Mets in good company. Fine! But what about taking a job in a school you don't know? Why is that so difficult? When are we going to break the schneid? Friends may not have much work for me this week---yes, we have unemployment but is this the way you really want to spend the day, and give yourself as little income to work with as possible. Oh, Cityboy, can't we do better than that. Most of these schools that you don't know that call you seem reasonable. So come on, cityboy, let's do it---see what is out there---look at all the theater or movies or opera in NY that is screaming for your attention---can't do that just with unemployment, and anyway, you don't want to. So that is the scoop, cityboy---see if we can make some moves in the next week.
Yesterday returned to Standings, baseball bar extraordinaire---watched about six innings of first game of the year---had fun, some return. Let's see what the rest of the day brings.......

My mind is reeling.......

from the trip yesterday (and Friday). Had forgotten how exciting it is to be in another city. Have always gotten good vibes from DC, strange, how a block away from where policy affecting all of us (US citizens) is made, a lively neighborhood of what seems to be "cool, normal" people, exists. Would like to return, maybe for Memorial Day weekend, and stay by myself in some "reasonable" hotel or boarding house, but....well, you know the money thing...see how it evolves. Still no work for this week, atleast can receive unemployment, still....after return to South Fourth, felt really good about being part of that group, also found a nice smoothy place on Bedford. Tomorrow, the Champion forum at Dancers Over 40.....? We'll see

the Robbins....

Mind is still reeling from the Robbins exhibit at Lincoln Center library---lots to get into and think about---will return there probably several times. Tomorrow will probably go with Bill to Washington to view WSS exhibit at Library of Congress---see it on Saturday--will drive down tomorrow, after another day (and I think a good one) at 163. Then Friends returns on Monday, but wonder if I will really get any work until end of week. Will not post again, I guess until Sunday or maybe Monday. Hope I decide to take more work in DOE next week if Friends does not need me, these empty days, waiting for the night to come, wear on me. But last night after seeing Betrayed (very strong!) had fun with Martin and friends at bar on Broome street (no, not Broome street bar). Had fun, but am uncomfortable with the pace of too many other people. Feel that may be my problem traveling with Bill, as well, but...anyway, will probably hit South Fourth tonight...and see what happens.

Tuesday's adventure

Left Brooklyn Public Library at around 1P.M. Found Vanderbuilt, walked down it---right past the hummus place fell hard on my hands and knees---blood everywhere---well not everywhere, but all over the left pinky and mostly left hand. Still continued on down Vanderbuilt, not wanting to stop until I had reached Outpost--that quirky hang-out place on Fulton near Irving. Stayed there a while---one of the baristas was extremely nice to me---gave me a bandaid, did not talk to anyone, then left, had to determine if it was time to return to the apartment.
Stood for many moments outside Outpost, just staring at the space facing north and on the nearby blocks, also facing north. Still an amazing no-man's land---not quite gentrified, yet still you can see the old street people inhabiting their spaces. Finally I walked to C train, retuned home to west side, until leaving for Williamsburg for the evening. Lots of people I knew, there, Nadia, Jasper, Adam, Scott. Sloane, et.al.
Today, doing fine until I read about Dan Doctoroff, then anger---anyway, now it is on to the Robbins exhibit at Lincoln Center Library.

so what...

so what happened yesterday...well, a little bit of rest, then got restless around 8, had to get out! But where? Brooklyn? Too tired, not sure if I was strong enough. So I decided to check out the new Toast--the one on 105street. Came in, saw immediately that the bar girl would not be very outgoing---it is a small bar--the restaurant is obviously the more important part of this establishment. So, had my beer--which I kind of enjoyed, and after two very obnoxious guys left, watched a little basketball, then chatted briefly with a nice guy who was playing in the Encores series. After he left, did not want to have another drink, so took off. Not a great evening, but isn't that part of the new bar experience, accepting that some moments might be more interesting than others. still, glad I did it---seem in a pretty mellow mood now, as I sit in Brooklyn Public library, but probably not for long...well...gotten as much out of the computer as I could have....later....

coming to.....

still another sleepless night after being unable to accept any DOE jobs yesterday. It is getting oppressive---here I have an incredible day on Thursday at 163---thought I had worked through my resisitance, only to reject several sub jobs today, a day that I could have worked one easily. Actually turned down one excellent school---atleast. So where does it end...? Friends is on its vacation, and it is possible that once they are back there will be plenty of work...but still, why this total resistance to any new school...? Got to work it through, Cityboy....other than that...probably Betrayed on Wednesday, and the trip to Washington with Bill on Saturday. tonight....feel very sleep now, see how that evolves.....

Yesterday and today.....

Well, everything happened yesterday.....returned to horse racing---as usual, smart choices but wrong one, read the third race correctly, but did a "hopeful" bet, rather than choosing McGlaughlin's horse, who, ofcourse, won. Then off to Film Forum to see Godards' Contempt---beuatifully made movie, but right in the middle I began to think of a film script that I would write---an encounter between a 53 year old woman, and myself---ofcourse they had dates in Park SLope, early to mid seventies, and ofcourse she is now married to someone else, who is dying. Then what...? Visited with Henry at Cosi's yesterday evening, always good to see him, had an interesting conversation with Martin, a thirty something doctor from Germany (Bonn) who is visiting with three friends. May see Betrayed with him on Wednesday. Went home and almost immediately fell asleep---then woke up at around 2, and thrashed around for a few hours. This morning calm and collected---listened to Mozart's first Haydn string quartet (k387) will hopefully study them all in the next few weeks. Very fascinating---now, here I am in the library-rest of the day what.....? hanging out at South Fourth...watching basketball, (plenty of it to watch)...and then...well, get on with it Cityboy.........

Friday.....completely invigorated.....

completely invigorated by my two classes at 163 yesterday---particularly the second one----wonderful listening skills and awareness skills for four year olds. Never thought working this age group would be so much fun---also, nice to be at a different school than Friends---never thought that quite possible---nevertheless, want to do most of my work there---hopefully, yesterday's success will make me less anxious about taking other jobs--got to deal with that---and hopefully there will be more work at 163. Today, possible horseracing adventure (or mini-adventure; have to be careful) then tonight, who knows? As usual, lots of options.

Much.....

Much happier today---the idea of going out to South Fourth was really good---had a nice talkwith Katya and Jasper, and then a good talk about opera and theater with Bill, and he wants to go down to Washington to see the WSS exhibit---we will drive down on the last day---have to check that out. Sometimes not working pays off--gives me the time to function in other circles, strange that since the end of Friends, or atleast its Spring vacation, I had isolated myself until yesterday evening. Both money and time are freed up this weekend, since won't be visiting DC--catch up on some movies or plays...? or maybe make it a "hangout" weekend---watch basketball and move around the city---tomorrow at 163, should be fun, have to buy a new pair of pants...so it goes........Ofcourse, this is the fifth anniversary of the troops going into Iraq---should have something to say about that.

calm down cityboy.......

left the Donnell library--my head spinning---with what---well, not happy to hear that in addition to cleaning at Dentist in June, will have to have my first cavity filled......and pay extra money that I am not budgeted for. Remind myself over and over that plenty of time to cover it, and obsession with not using credit card for ANYTHING--puts me in a good place for that by June. But other things as well---my head is fiilled with trying to get as much info as I can re the Bear Sterns crisis---that is alot to focus on---and whole attitude that building luxury housing is good for the city---but decided this afternoon, after Patti canceled Lena's lesson (I did not expect it to happen anyway) to calm down, chill out---will try to stay at library until after 3, then take out some chamber music (I have not done that in a long while) and go home to wait for the sub system to call me. Give that an hour and then off to South Fourth. Sounds better, huh? But still issues re subbing for DOE; have a job at 163 on Thursday, should be good, but still is a chore thinking of going to unknown schools, and no amount of research re internet on schools seems to make it more palatable. Should get some work for the next two weeks in addition to Thursday,
and cretainly, today has proven that time on my hands is not fun. Friends? Think I am coming down from last week---can't do much since vacation does not end until 3/31. So should find other work....we'll see.

Yesterday...after

yesterday...after the movie at BAM---an Olivera movie---finally saw one, very beautiful, but terribly overstructured--determined---left after two hours---took bus up to Putnam and Fulton, or where Putnam begins---in search of Outpost. Found myself on a nice quiet block, just one block away from Franklin Avenue---realized Outpost was west of there, trekked about three blocks through industrial no man's land, past Classon, and right west of Irving, there it was. Went in and had their coffee---very good coffee, I might add, very individual---and read for about an hour. Sitting near to me was a young man and his lover, soon joined by a friend of the girl friend---they seemed to have graduated from Yale around 05 or something like that---found them interesting, but continued to read my book on takeover of Nabisco---it drones along---but should finish it. After I left, too late to go to Barbes----Freddy's? not really because I wasn't sure I wanted a beer, tempted to go up what is now the Vanderbuilt Avenue strip, but instead walked along Fulton towards the subway. Very interesting to walk down Fulton from Iriving (or Classon) to Washington, which is the beginning of Clinton Hill. A real sense of no man's land--extremely quiet, some small buildings, several construction sites which will be housing for whom....? Quiet, but people walking past me are either young and white, or those black people who seem poorer, inhabitants from the time that Bed-Stuy had its bad reputation, or its poor reputation. Also several church families---that is still prevalent there. Walked down to Flatbush, actually a rather long walk, and it was cold, but I loved looking at things there. Now, more time on my hands until Friends reopens, some subbing at DOE schools...? We'll see.

fast and furiious......

the action is coming fast and furious---finally a day off from Friends, but a marathon tomorrow, and possibly a long day on Friday as well...well it is the end of the term, so should take it---otherwise, what---still exhilirated by artistic choices, maybe even see two movies in one day (possible?) over the weekend, the Spitzer thing and all this work has taken my mind off the Harlem problem---the city council's committee acceptance of the reorganization of 125 street---I still have not written to my councilwoman, sure there are a lot of other sites to visit, but should still do that...will go to South Fourth today, havn't been there in a while, after tutoring Lena (I think). Otherwise, still much to think about for the rest of the day........

humid

did I really mean humid....just a word that came into my mind...really feeling kind of mellow; will be working tomorrow for Shireen at Friends, and also, had a nice session with Brandon---he is doing so much better now that he sees his home teacher every day, also she has given him a "math process" that really works for him; much more emphasizing the "step by step" than my process or help, which relies more on remembering to concetualize. Ofcourse, she has more time than I do---but I wonder......last night Rock and Roll, sort of liked it---ending is awfully mushy....than a great slice of pizza at a raunchy pizza place on Union Square, tried to see Bobby yesterday, but the place was packed, decided that discretion was the better part of valor, and opted to go home---glad I did, not really sure what the rest of the day will bring.......