off the schneid......

finally moved into working at another school; got job at Lab School, good location, a nice deal being part of a class taught by a second teacher, and finally a good relationship with the kids. Returning there on Thursday, and will be at Friends on Friday---sounds good enough. Otherwise, things continue to be hectic, do not think I will attend the reunion, but that could change---very ambivalent. Will tutor today, then not sure about the night---last night an interesting conversation with a young man at Amsterdam Ale house, you see , some interesting things arise, outside of South fourth.

so anyway,

went to Pianos to hear Nila and friends last night; not terribly successful, in terms of hearing her, because the place was packed, much too overpacked, and I felt uncomfortable and left after the second song. Revealing evening, because Ludlow Street in this area is packed around 10:00 P.M., so much for the recession, filled with kids, but did check out a sport bar across the street from Pianos called THe Blue Seats, got a nice vibe from it, though it is kind of expensive; many other bars in a four block surrounding area, all seemed to be doing passably well, meanwhile, the transit problem, the deficit problem, where are we in all this?
Otherwise, a nice time at South fourth yesterday afternoon with Julianne and Patrick and other assorted characters; feeling kind of mellow today, the weekend filled with many options, how will it end.....?

later....

slept, but awoke around 8, and though I thought I might be too tired, repaired to South Fourth, arrived there about 10 or 11, (not sure) but had very good talk with Brit and husband (hers) Rory about special ed classes, and their value. Then hung around a bit to talk to others, Kim gave me her report about Happiness, then went home around 1, but stopped off to say hi to harold at 113. That was fun, but crowded, got out of their quickly, and headed home. The next two days have been ones of rest, and some anxiety, re accepting jobs at DOE while I wait for FRiends to reopen, but today, in spite of a terrible night with no heat, feel incredibly relaxed, may pick up a new student, much to see and do, again, one million options. Talk later.........

yesterday...

at South fourth, good time chatting with Julianne. The American Plan that evening, far better than I expected---was seriiously moved....finally today, a long walk from west Bronx to east Bronx with Pam, amazing how easy the walk was. later.......

angry because.....

i could have subbed at Lab school today, and turned it down. Why? told myself i wasn't sure how good it was---when in fact I had heard from many others it was good. when will all this end.....anyway, see if the absense of work today will accomplish anything. tomorrow I meet Pam in the Bronx--we will walk around the two neighborhoods that I wish to show the kids---all transitional. Rest of the day...will "hang" at South fourth for a while, after this, then go see American Plan tonight. Still up in the air about baltimore trip---oh well, what is new.....?

in Brooklyn......

now---a moment ago as I stood by the window, I thought it would just be the most wonderful thing to follow the road outside the library south as far as I could go. Especially on a day like this. Brooklyn means walking---but what of the other stuff---a rough night last night, couldn't go anywhere, and did not sleep well---anyway, it is over now, and the big event for the day will be my visit with the dentist, later this afternoon, then to hear Ron read his short passage at 6:30.
Rest of the day will be taken by my journey to South Fourth, hang out there a little before returning to Manhattan. Friends vacation is taking a little more of a toll then I thought, may mean some changes for next week----but what......?

for some reason......

very exasperated this morning; can't seem to find the good in anything---had a nice night at South Fourth last evening---but------always limiting my final activity---is that it? Should I expand? Today, want to go to see something, but how about trying a new place, like Craft bar, or some other place. Even if it does not go well....does it matter? You have what you have. Anyway, should feel better after tutoring Chelsea (canceled yesterday) Still have not made up my mind re reunion----wonder what that will bring......