Thursday.....

Really great day yesterday at Friends, can't wait till tomorrow, left there feeling very up relaxed about spending today off---that's good, on Tuesday, returning home from tutoring Chelsea, read thes second story in Ms. Lahiri's collection; very strong, I was totally moved by it; it is a perfect example of structure that is strong, and feelings that are meaningful. I don't know how exactly she does it, but her insight into loneliness, sex, etc. is teriffic. After tutoring Lena, simply went to the park (Bryant) watched the baseball game on the big TV, and wondered home, stopped off at Playwrights Tavern to have a beer, but was pretty put off by the place, a surly bartender and not really anyone to talk to...but you have to try it. Rest of the day after tutoring Chelsea not clear, possibly South Fourth, or maybe Sound and Fury, so much to do, so little........

Miss Lahiri"s.....

Miss Lahiri's short story brings up a lot of feelings for me; moody, lachrymose, beautifully articulated...also about family and age....what happened last night? Collapse, both physical and yet seemingly emotional, overwhelmed by what.....? choices, an enormous walk through Fort Greene and some of Bed Stuy-----anniversary of.....? Still, recovered nicely this morning, met Yulia, collected my fee, had an interesting conversation, now an interesting walk---later ball game and cookout, and finally....? the play, or maybe it will be better to watch Mets vs. Marlins---subway ride to Juniors, in last car of the R train---just one other person and myself......other things....what?

spent the morning.........

at Heights Cafe; nice meal, Annie there, conversations with Danny and Mark et. al; nice to see Nancy again; she really is a good person---then the walk across Fort Greene, the bus ride down Bedford, and the landing at South Fourth, more good conversation, watching baseball, but you know what, I am played out, tired, need a release, does this mean I should check out a play, maybe a movie, here is where it gets complicated...(or atleast by definition. I am sure life is far more complicated for others) fun at theparty at TEAM, but everythng ends........

last night and this morning....

just got a rush for Sunday in the Park---finally decided to see a play---good for you, cityboy! Tonight the party for the TEAM---gonna be fun---the rest of the weekend, who is to say...?
Memorial day here so soon again, the first weekend of the summer-still tremendous changes this year---I think!
Yesterday after tutoring Chelsea, had to fight with myself not to get off at 174 street and either walk around, or take Boston Road bus to 149 street, but did get off to switch to 5 train, and my eyes followed Boston Road south---amazing--could have closed my eyes and imagined the early fifties, the all Jewish neighborhood---whenever I travel feel that need to explore the whole Bronx, Brooklyn, whatever---anyway, the day contiunes and we will see what happens.

feeling satisfaction

nice and easy today, going to be warm, and I will be going to the Bronx to tutor this afternoon, felt a sense of luxury about the weekend, after tutoring I will probably go to South Fourth, after that, who knows, may spend a lot of time there...the party on Saturday night should be fun, after that.......plenty of time to cruise around, if that is what I wish to do.

annoyed......

Cityboy missed another interview; that is what you get for not having a computer, but maybe we can work it through for tomorrow, anyway, wish that I could go there now and do the interview, rather than use the computer, but....sort of impossible at this moment. Other than that, I was feeling good, sort of like doing nothing today, letting it all air out---possibly a movie, now I even feel blocked about that, will go to meeting of subs this afternoon, then maybe a movie or back to South Fourth---oh yes, had a good time there last night, might go back again, and slept fairly well last evening, no cold impediment, think that that is over----anyway, we will see...maybe more clarity this weekend, cityboy.

angry at.....

froze last night, even if we got heat in the early evening-----now feeling okay, but still a slight head ache which I think is from that----should I call again and ask that heat be atleast put on slightly for the early part of the morning? So passive when it comes to that...then received a call from Humana asking me to join their drug program....feel like I am being exploited...so here I am. But other things are good---seems like there will be lots to do this weekend; wonder if I will see any plays, or whatever----city seems odd, constantly reading about people with no money, spending less and less, but at the same time, everything seems crowded...where do you go with that? Later at South Fourth........