June 1.....

What to say----I am tired from yesterday, but really enjoyed myself at the party for The Team. Strange, how all political visions can dissappear when one is having a good time, and relating to another world (theater) where there seems to be no conflict. But still....what happens on June 30, when cuts go in, and MTA cut backs begin. Will you even be here or in Boston. What about this week, are we strong enough to help my student in the Math A regents. How much learning do I myself have to do. Three books in the library I would like to take out (Auster, Rapp, and Rakoff) yet won't because I am still reading the Feiffer book, and feel the need to work constantly on the Math.
Two students today, then, perhaps try the bar on first avenue where I watched baseball last week, or perhaps another place, depends on how tired I find myself. Later.......

sitting here....

close to twelve o'clock p.m., soon will leave to go to the Bronx Museum, and serve as a "guide" to Pam's twelth grade city class. Chose a route along 167 street---want them to see it for all that it is---also part of your past, also Kerry and Jennifer will be along with us---should be interesting.
Other than that, still tired, don't expect to sub tomorrow, that is to the good, I feel, Tuesday will be enough---later today, what.....? Should go to see Layla at Bembe, havn't checked in with her in a while---hope I am not too tired, havn't been to Williamsburg in a while either---miss it---feeling tired but fruitful, like to have a little more time for myself......but......

Long time....why....?

What does writing symbolize to you, Bob. So many stories, so many ideas, but unable to execute. Why? Is the "doing" of life more exciting? Very intense week---kind of calm now, as I have some time before my 4 o,clock tutoring session. Very strong day tomorrow, amazed that I could go from Queens to Grand Street and give two good sessions, after two periods, and some time spent at Friends. Still, did it...slept pretty well for a change. Where to now, what about Adam's play, feel ambivalent---looking forward to Saturday helping out at the fringe, Should do more of these, easier to go to other sites...."Easier...? Planning for trip to Bronx next Sunday, see what happens......

First week...

in a while that I havn't been at Friends, maybe next week.......? Still, very busy, tutoring, it seems has exploded upon me---running all over the place (Tuesday? Queens to Bronx to Upper East side...? are you kidding.....) so a great deal of satisfaction from that. Missed Muti and Attila, will I see it Monday....doubtful....hopefully the Nose......this weekend will try to do my off off Broadway due diligence...seeing Seusical tonight with one of my students, Kevin, playing a Monkey...otherwise, just moving along........

rushed.....

well that seems to be it; tomorrow four things---just reminding myself of a time in 66, yes, that is 1966, when I stood at the opera house, thinking clearly about the moment I was living in. Now, if this was to happen today, I would probably feel terribly rushed, as if this was just a moment in time, moving on to the next.
Busy week---first day off, can hardly catch my breadth. What about tomorrow, four tasks, can I do them all? What about returning to Boston to see the Odets play, will I have the time to do that? What about going to Washington to see the two history plays? Any and all of this might be accomplished. What about "the Purification" with puppets (indeed!) will I make that. All things to be cosidered, as I move frantically from place to place. That is all now......

so I returned.......

yes and after much deliberation went to Boston this weekend to see Gatz! Overall effect: exhiliration! It was the smartest thing I could have done. Amazed at how easy the bus ride was. and how much I liked the Somerville neighborhood that I stayed in. But the play and the people who attend ART---that is what got me thinking. Some fascintating ideas moving around my head. What does that mean...? Shall be considered.......

long time, cityboy

like over three months---why? Some of my best subbing and tutoring experiences inthe past three months---now feeling pretty exhausted---yesterday waited an hour for Kevin-Dayra (my tutorees) then left apartment, went to library then back to the house, climbed what must have been seven flights of stairs in the process, so physically pretty tired. Went to Toast afterwards to eat---nice guy was bartender, but no one to talk to---kind of sad how uninteresting that place has become, atleast when I am there---but perhaps one needs to move on---just read Isherwood's review of Greenspan's piece--sounds like I would like to see it, since I wake up thinking about theater myself, wonder what makes him so special---also the gay angle--posession....? Anyway, already have eaten two rather large meals, will go to Bronx again today to work with Chelsea and then Diamond. Very proud of the Death of a Salesman essay I "helped" her write---wonder of she has gotten any feedback on it from her teacher--next at Friends on tuesday, unless some action before---we'll see.......