All Dressed Up....

 and "nowhere to go." that seems to be where I am right now---Christmas Eve--in the past two days have tutored 6 sessions---some very fulfilling ones, and here I am now with tonight and tomorrow free---I promised myself that I would see at least 2 movies during this time---there are about 15 interesting possibilities in the city---but am somewhat lethargic, as 6 o'clock rears its ugly head, and I don't know if I have the energy to stick it through a movie yet I long to get out the apartment! Coffee---somewhere---someplace---oh well--so where do we go from here. 

Remembering a Christmas Eve spent first in Bushwick and then at South Fourth---must have been 15 or 16--no, I think it was 14, Lots of fun conversation---bartender Merlin at South Fourth had several friends in--a playwright from the middle east---we worked on a crossword puzzle together---then joined by others, including another young female playwright whose career has become a major one. Now South fourth is no more---the Cobra Club in Bushwick is too far away---and I am here.  Lower energy, but of course that is the result of extra years---the illness---and other things.

Returned to Friends on Friday for their Christmas Assembly--recongnized by many---nice words from a couple of boys from the graduating class who remembered my subbing for them. nice since that will be 5 years in March. Still feel both welcome and unwelcome there---not trying to work it out now, but I would like to integrate myself more in the community then I am now. Afterwards, stayed around and saw a fascinating production of The Merchant of Venice at CSC. My friend played Shylock--we spoke afterwards and I also spoke to the director, who appreciated my comments. Nice being part of that environment again---felt I belonged, and had something to say. Wanted to see the final play at the Soho rep venue on Walker Street, but could not get to it, Maybe one theater visit was exciting enough for the weekend.

So here we are---still restless and tired---not the best combination, But will report soon.