A terrible sense of relief! But yesterday was full of "grapples". Wanted very much to go down to my friend's bar on Avenue C and ninth, but was tired most of the day. So if not that, maybe a movie? Shot down that one as well. By 7 I realized that my energy could not support a trip to the East Village, and with some (but not much) reservation, decided to just stay home. Watched some football; listened to some music; also slept a little. Seemed to have made it through, but still, after all these years. haunted by the "myth" of a successful New Years Eve. That would be "what"? A date, or atleast a party with some friends. But it did not happen. Now, the next morning, the anxiety has all but washed away---it's over and I am a free man again.
As far as today goes....not sure. Maybe one of the many movies that are around---or possibly just a "jaunt" to Brooklyn---remember those trips east on Lafayette Avenue, as the bus moved from BAM to Bushwick? There and back-is it still possible? We will see.
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