Should check in....

 the "long weekend" ended up being just that. but on Saturday afternoon I did go to the Met and saw this wonderful production of Don Giovanni--a really joyful experience. A great cast that worked beautifully off each other---every moment clear--some of the staging worked---some didn't, but it did not matter, because the flow was so meaningful. The arc from that first time---in February of 66 to that afternoon seems incredible--a 'sung" opera with major singers, but with staging that was just workable---acceptable for its time---to this totally integrated production using every part of the stage. I left feeling completely whole.

Sunday a slow day---kind of in a physical torpor---not much energy--to be expected after the two days before.Still it was difficult. Finally, around 5, spent an hour in the neighborhood Barnes and Noble just browing, and kind of felt excited by being part of a different energy. Of course did not buy anything.

Monday was able to visit my friend Bob's bar, in the afternoon, hang out, and absorb myself in the baseball game between the Mets and ....can't even remember. Still, enjoyed absorbing myself in it.

Tuesday and Wednesday---some tutoring but mostly tired. The new medication, more potent, seemed to be catching up to me. On Thursday, however, had three straight hours--worked very hard--and left tired but very fulfilled. So ofcourse, Friday my body was very slow---I got through one hour of teaching but just by luck. Had to stay home the rest of the day. Same with yesterday--wanted to take it easy but often feel stymied by simply being in the apartment. Outside is so much more interesting. But last night I opted to stay indoors---enjoyed reading Either Or by Elif Batumin--still, a very restless overnight--which brings us to now. Sunday morning. 

Could have tutored in Jackson Heights--with my adult student whose company I enjoy, but skipped it, because I wanted to store my energy for this afternoon. I am finally seeing Without You, the one man show created by and starring Anthony Rapp. I had been putting it off for God knows how long, but finally an going to it. Anthony and I were close friends mostly in the years 91-96---we had a really terrific rapport, but I really have had almost no contact with him in the last 15 years. So i am going this afternoon, and will say hello to him afterwards---I hope he greets me warmly---but---you never know--young impertuous actors can sometimes turn into cautious adults==a "morphing" process. I will accept  any reaction from him--certainly hope we can rekindle some of our old friendship. But I could not see myself bypassing his production so here I go.

Still wondering how the new infusion---much stronger---will effect my life. Feeling kind of overwhelmed by the choices available to me---a heavy week ahead with tutoring and the Friends graduation on Thursday. We'll see how I feel when I get through it....