Another Saturday night and....

 you know how the song goes. Yes, here I am on Saturday night, around 7:30---no appetite--a little bit scared of going to a movie--a little bit tired of listening to baseball games or going on the theater site on Facebook---definitely need a change. Have tried to contact a friend for some advice---no luck yet---at some point I will go out at least for a walk---move around---and maybe then the appetite will arrive.

Yesterday evening walked from my apartment north on Amsterdam---teaming with life int the many restaurants that I passed---to 86th street, then  south on Columbus---more restaurants, including two on 84th street, a little east of Columbus---84th street---remember when that was considered the most dangerous block in the city---sixty years ago--now lined with restaurants and middle class-upper class patrons without a care in the world. How do you process time? Many couples in these restaurants---I would say about 35 per cent older and the rest, young couples. Everyone with someone except me---process that cityboy! Actually I can accept that--not a problem---except sometimes I wonder,,,?

Took out a book of essays today from the library. First one read was from Notes of a Native Son by Baldwin. Could not put it down---great, passionate writing. A few others---one by Mary McCarthy---a little slow, and one by Adrienne Rich---revealing but I had to put it down at the park because my eyes were getting strained. May return to it next reading. Still on my "buddy", Henry Roth's last autobiographical novel. A few dull spots, but mostly interesting---a great description of an uncle--once exciting and jovial; now (late thirties) destoyed by the grind of work---a harsh counterman at an all night cafeteria (yes, they used to have them)  Roth's description gets it so right---captures so carefully the plight of the first generation poor Jew, who arrived  from eastern Europe in the early part of the 20th century, and was econmically beaten down into a harsh, ugly world. 

Could go on further but will stop here---medically moving along with my treatment---nothing new---will report soon.