One more day.....

 until my ct and mri. That will be tomorrow morning. CT test is easy---MRI not so much. 45 minutes in the pod---the first time I had one, right before the ileostomy, I thought it would be brief---when it was not I was very annoyted---wanted out---I think I stopped it a little early, but they got what they wanted. In January I actually jumped out of the pod, just as the procedure was starting, Just could not do it---don't want that to happen tomorrow. I have a valium pill, which I can take before both tests---then some support from Laura, the social worker from radiation oncology. I have asked her to make sure that I am all right, after the MRI. In January when I rejected it, the three doctors working with me  did not seem to feel it was too important---radiation followed, but I suppose because I have finished that treatment now it will help my surgeon be more informed---at least I hope that is what it will do. Try to understand, cityboy, that it is just 45 minutes in time---not a machine trying to hurt you. Why that fantasy...? I don't know--the same kind of fear I experienced when I fantasized the colonoscopy---and yet the reality was totally opposite. So there you have it---wish me luck!

On my third novel in a week---this is Rodham, a fictionalized account of the life of Hilary Clinton, written by Cutis Sittenfeld. She did a great job with an earlier novel called American Wife---another fictionalized "autobiography" this time about Laura Bush. Rodham is narrated by Hilary---I am still close to the beginning; the narrative voice of Hilary, is idealistic, and full of passionate discovery. She and Bill have just become a couple, and she is totally into it. The voice is very likeable---will the novel get to the other parts of her that one has heard about---the ability to berate others---the love for money---shes seems so far away from that now. I am full into it---I want to see how her life, as told in this novel, will evolve. Yesterday I finished Monogamy, by Sue Miller, who is a skillful writer, but creates a world for her white upper middle class Cambridge Massachusets characters that is completely safe---and ultimately artificial. These are bright people ( of course) and over a 30 year period what do they mostly do. Attend book readings, go to dinner parties, wander through the high end stores of Cambridge. It is a world completely divorced from anything happening anywhere else; not one character posesses a shred of interest or awareness of other neighborhoods, lifestyles, poverty etc. Yes, she writes very well, but by the end, I was tired of the world of the characters. What next...? Not sure--have a long way to go in Rodham and want to finish that first. 

Not much else---following baseball season closely---easy with the computer---that occupies me a good deal---some movies,,,? Maybe later---let it happen....