so it is over....

my theater going adventures, at least for a while. Wow! For the first time in my life since I was 6, I will not have any theater going to think about. It is a strange time---almost surreal, as I try to figure out my day, and my options, in the face of all the entertainment that has been for so long a part of my life, and is now not available. Yes, most movie theaters are open, and I will go to some, but for me, movies leave me detached---unlike theater where I feel part of the community that is creating the work. But all the theaters---large and small---have closed,save possibly for Dixon Place which (if it stays open) might have some interesting projects in the next few weeks.
  Yesterday evening, after leaving La Flaca, walked around the city for a bit---moving from Clinton and Grand to the Angelica on Houston and Broadway, and later over to the Film Forum. A quietness pervaded the city---streets were mostly empty. Today, another "free day"''after this I will probably head to the Fiction Center and read a while, before deciding what my next move will be.
  Metrograph is showing two movies that I saw at two different and very well defined times in my past. Red Desert, by Antonioni---saw it twice in March 65, as I was leaving Yale and my life of the past few years was falling apart around me. The second, Persona, by Bergman, I saw in fall of 75, with the woman that I was then dating named Nancy---my life was pretty focused and satisfied at that time. However that would change soon as well. Do I want to see either movie again..? Will it mean getting in touch with the memories from that time rather then enjoying the film?  An interesting dilemma.
  Before writing this blog, went to the web site that has my Yearbook from Bronx High School of Science. Always, I go through the individual pictures, each of which has the graduate's address. If that address is around the Concourse or its vicinity, I usually go to google maps and look at the apartment houses. Of course they bring back memories, of a Bronx that was all white and mostly middle class. But how do I incorporate those memories and feelings with my vision of what the area is like now. The change, from an all white to an all black and Hispanic neighborhood for me was drastic. But there are good people living there now--why do I...? What do I want to do...? Turn back time...? Impossible
  All right, time to let it go, time to make use of this weather which, by the end of the day will be in the high 60's. Will report soon.