wear and tear...

is what cityboy is feeling right now, around 4:30, sitting in the lincoln center library.  Already it has been a long day, from waking up around 5 (that is my normal) to going out to Brooklyn fairly early---hanging out at the Brooklyn Public Library--then a little time on Vanderbuilt by this time (around 1) the heat has gotten to me, I am tired and head back to Manhattan and the apartment. As I sit here, I am still a bit winded, not sure what to do with the evening. A hard evening because it is still All Star Break, so cannot hit a bar and watch a game---have to wait until Friday to do that. Not sure how the evening will turn out---or how much energy I have to give to it. What does this mean? Am I perpetually tired?  Can't stop getting up so early---it seems like it is just a habit. Anyway, will figure out something for tonight---either paying or non paying---based on my energy level.
 Tomorrow will see Promenade, part of the musical series at City Center. Would not have gone under normal circumstances but Jim, my roommate from college and his wife are going---they are in from DC---and I am meeting them there and afterwards we will go out for a bite, or something. They are staying in an airbnb in Brooklyn Heights, near where their son and his wife and child are living. Still remember the first evening, a Thursday evening in late September 60 that he and I spent together,---we were both baseball fans and we talked a lot of baseball facts and trivia that evening---and bonded well. I still remember the feeling of relief and excitement I had while the conversation was going on--this was to be the person I was sharing a room with for a year, and we were hitting it off very well.
Now, how many years----59--he and his wife are retired and living outside DC---and I am here--still trying to "put things together".
 The days without sessions continue to be too long---I really need the structure that the sessions or the work at Friends gives me---that is clear. But that may not be for a while. So calm down, cityboy, make the most of your time to read, walk (hey it is hot!) interact (as you did last night at two places in Williamsburg) and observe the city.
So the evening will soon descend on me with all its choices. Will report soon.