stomach cramps dominating...

the feeling right now. Don't know why, but they are pretty intense at this moment. Have to work through them, which is possible. Maybe what I just ate, at one of the more upscale grocery stores in the west side neighborhood that I live in--these problems seem to crop out after I take out some food from there. But ever since the West Side Market left us about a year and a half ago, have had to buy some of my food from there. Must change this and remember it.
  Yesterday---an odd night---tired after session in the morning, but had to leave the apartment because it was being cleaned in the afternoon. The woman who cleans for me does an incredibly good job, and when I returned to the apartment, which had been really dirty when I left it, it looked like somebody else's. But it was mine. Then ran off the Sci Fi Festival at Westbeth---this was a science project by an actor who is a relative of a friend of mine. But, unlike the first two that I had seen two nights before, this one was slow and pedantic and actually went on for two hours. Luckily, I left at intermission---but was tired, and did not want to repeat the visiting Formerly Crows and having the expensive (but very good) blt from the night before. Found a kind of cruddy pizza store and bought a pepironi slice (this may be the cause of my stomach discomfort) then walked north on 8th avenue from 14th to 23rd street. Tired, yet it was only a little past eight, but decided to go home. Was asleep by about 10--not a good night--woke up feeling kind of angry---why?---I don't really know- there are moments in the evenings when my body is tired but my mind does not want to go home. Maybe I should let my mind dominate. I think just that "nothing happened" after leaving the project may have cut me down. It is something to think about---this is my vacation; I promised myself more "energy" then when I was subbing regularly. Will try to keep my nights longer----I think I have to.
  Today, want to take a respite from play watching, think that I will just go hang out at La Flaca and watch what I think is a major baseball game between the Astros and Yankees---a statement game if there ever was one. Will be nice to just relax and immerse myself in the game. Should also visit the bar in Bed-Stuy where I know the bartender---I have been planning to go there for a while, but have never made it--but they have no tv. So, what to do? Will report soon on this dilemma.