so he made his move....

and canceled his scheduled colonoscopy for this Monday. How do you feel, cityboy? Depends---different things at different times. It's nice that the weekend is now open. I have things to do on Saturday that I think would have been very difficult if I went ahead with the procedure---I would have been very worried about the next day--also, I could be asked to work on Monday and I would not want to miss that (it is also check day---important!)
  Yet, I would be not telling the truth if I did not say that I am not sure where I stand on this. I know that I should get this procedure---the question is how, and with whom? Can I find a doctor who will make me feel he or she is protective of me? I think that is one of the things that I am looking for. A lot to be worked out---will see my "friendly" doctor a week from Wednesday, perhaps our discussion then will provide some answers.
 Need to lose myself in something at this point---read something fascinating; have an interesting or passionate conversation with someone---
  This afternoon, one of the biographers of Robbins is giving a talk. I might want to take that in---see what she has to say and compare that with my vision or of the choreographer and the breadth of his work. Still feel strongly related to it---in a way his work mirrors my childhood and young adult hood.West Side Story changed me irrevocably--you know that---also remember the first time I saw the opening procession from Fiddler---really remarkable for what it was. I had come in from Yale (the drama school) that morning, and met my brother and father at the theater. Yes, those were the days when David and I shared so much fun and enthusiasm for going to plays together.
  Last night, after a light sleep that ended around 7, left the apartment, went down to the Apple Store to check e-mail (nothing) then decided that the best place for me to have a meal was Lansdowne Road. Good idea, my friend Mel, an actress and waitress was very happy to see me, and I also had a nice talk with the bartender---she described to me in detail her trip to parts of Europe. It was a good choice. Incidentally, I walked from the Apple Store on 67th and Broadway to the bar-restaurant on 44th and 12th. Great day to walk, very mild.
 My niece Natalie and her husband Jarett arrive tonight and will be visiting until next Wednesday. Will probably spend Sunday with them---should be fun---a lot of good conversation. Will report soon.