a learning experience for

Cityboy last night---went to the Reading---had mixed feelings about the content---the piece is structured almost like an anti-play---anyway, afterwards, Sarah invited me to go with the some of the actors and their friends, and the playwright, to Northern Bell, the very mellow bar restaurant about half a block east on Metropolitan. Very glad that I did. I had a very strong theater discussion with Sarah, then before I left some nice contact with actress Lucy and her friend Elena ( a composer who will be having a song cycle performed at the Tank in August). As I left I realized how concretized  (I don't know if that is a real word, but that is how I feel) this whole experience left me. Very distant from some of the anxiety and "hunger" that I experience when I am alone. So maybe this is truly who you are. It is important that you let yourself be defined by the way other people see you. Why, because I think this is really an accurate vision. Now I am feeling upbeat and eager to continue the summer.
Not much else to report--may have a session today---I am waiting to hear---and also possibly go to Brooklyn to do some data entry. I should, my typing is excellent. I think this would be more important then checking out a movie, or simply "hanging out". I found two books that interest me---both are autobiographies of young black men who overcame bad beginnings to become successful. One was raised in a dangerous section in Baltimore, the other, a Haitian gentleman who came hear when he was 10 and lived in Crown Heights (this was before it became desirable). Both are at different libraries--I will at least try to pick up one this afternoon. Meanwhile last night I began Capote's Breakfast at Tiffanys---it is a nice, airy piece that captures the upper east side during World War II, when it did not cost a lot to live there---when "the rich" only occupied a small swath of Manhattan, and Lexington Avenue in the sixties and seventies, was "full of bars." A small book, easy to carry around on the subway, and it draws one in nicely.
Anyway, not sure about the rest of the day---or evening. I got in late last night and woke up fairly early--might have to make up some sleep, but then again---might not...