waiting for tomorrow....

the city wide action, I have helped (in a very small way) to plan. Very ambivalent about my participation, what, of the many choices to I want to participate in. It will be very hot, so long walks...
but you know you are very good at long walks. Anyway, still figuring out my place in things---today I will help Michael and make some phone calls for FUREE.
Woke up this morning feeling very anxious---I think I am finally discovering the difference between action and "art". Art, no matter how messy, is absorbed and thought about as a whole experience---when it is over, one returns to one's next moment. Action, or democracy, or trying to effect change is very sloppy, happens over a long period of time---and is much harder to pin down. That explains the anxiety, I think, I cannot 'pin down" this experience, it is constantly in motion and changing and even after the marches tomorrow, it will continue. So that is it.
Rest of the day, some tutoring---then the phone calls, not sure what will happen after that, if anything.
And then tomorrow...if I don't work, there will be decisions to be made.