today is.....

one day before New Year's Eve, should I regard this with a sense of dread? Somehow, feelings seem to be incredibly strong at the moment, so if nothing is happening, tend to focus on tomorrow. But there is still today, a lesson, then going to see Tamburlaine in Brooklyn this evening, also plan to buy a ticket for The Iceman Cometh at BAM before the play.
Yesterday, after library visit, tried to buy a belt at Old Navy, found them to be very expensive, finally settled on one, only to find that the line at the cashier's was very long---simply bolted in frustration without buying anything---went to another store nearbye, found a belt that might work, still very expensive, but would not let me try it fully on, felt annoyed, frustrated and used, so simply left without a new belt.
Spent rest of the day at Lincoln Center library, returned home---felt a need to get out around 8, so ended up going to see the Dardennes Brothers movie, Two Days, One Night at sixplex opposite Lincoln Center. Would have liked a more expansive movie, this one very much of a "lesson" movie, even with the presence of Marion Cotillard, felt locked in to a vision that would take me all the way through, but again, more like being taught a lesson---would have liked to see a more expansive, visual movie---nevertheless chose this one. Returned home, no problems, but up at around 3, spent a good deal of time rehashing some issues in my mind, finally got to sleep after about two hours---this is where a smart phone would make a difference, could browse to my heart's content if I woke up in the middle of the night, now I am "trapped" in my own thoughts---so which is the better choice---well, the holiday will be over soon, can return to regular routine, which will be very helpful
Will report tomorrow on Brooklyn trip and Tamburlaine...