five days later....

city boy still immersed in Friends. Only day off today, can't imagine how different I feel physically---no stair climbing that must be it. Felt a sense of a need to clear my mind, this morning---did not take a book with me, now a little sad about that, might have wanted to have Pride and Prejudice around. Return to Friends tomorrow---not sure about the weekend, Sunday took a good walk down Fulton Street to Franklin, then walked again from Bedford to Washington before I got lunch, then down to Fulton to take the C to the F to Anthology, for a lethargic movie (though well meaning and done with affection) about the late Mars Bar where
Jonas Mekas used to go. Instead of Academy Awards, watched basketball at Standings, I knew there would be plenty of room there, then got the call for Monday, then returned home.
Not sure about the rest of the day...should go out to Bushwick and visit Susan at Cobra, then the evening is not planned. Tomorrow back at Friends for perhaps the whole day, not sure, or how tired I may be afterwards. We'll find out tomorrow.....

exhaustion,,,,,

the usual Friday---Saturday transition, not terribly well made. Last Friday just went home and collapsed, but almost did not go to Michael and Abby's piece Saturday evening,  due to tiredness. Glad I made it there, though. Yesterday went to Friends dance concert---great stuff, really, lots of great potential in the younger dancers. Woke up this morning around four, felt fine, then after getting coffee around 7:30, shortly felt like all the energy in my body just disappeared. Slept for about an hour, then got up slowly, still feeling tired, though much better, must, yes that is must go to basketball game in Brooklyn Heights this afternoon. I don't know, is it simply burnout---exhaustion at the end of the week? Do I have time for other things....? What about tonight, can I see Powder Her Face...? or should I simply go home. Already have several things planned for next weekend, when does it end...? Feeling better now (yes, I know I just mentioned that, but had to say it anyway) feel a tremendous need  (or had a vision) to go the the Bronx, near where my mother taught when I was growing up. Visited there once, several years ago, of courses all Puerto Rican now----still would love to  get some images...no tutoring, no visit. Anyway, lets' get on with things.....

tired....

four days of work, must have taken more out of me then I suspected.....today...well will see Michael's piece in the evening---but before--toying with a few ideas, some plays that might be available---not sure what else. Last two nights have had their "lows"; a moment of awakening when loneliness seemed a little frightening--still when it is over, it is over. Maybe part of the strength I feel at Friends, the other side of that...? No bars around that I can drop into at 2:30 A.M., if I lived in Williamsburg or Bushwick...? but of course I don't.
Anyway, three days to explore, figure out what to do, hope it will not be too cold for that....more later....

long time...

since last post--probably because of work---many things to say, but at the same time, things change so quickly. After three days of work at Friends and three evenings out, body is really tired today; just completed a review of Elisir for operagasm, hope they like it. Long weekend ahead, finally see some cash tomorrow, myriad of choices available, took interesting trip to Brownsville on super bowl sunday, came out okay, never been this far on the L train, only scary on the way back, but actually nothing happened. More details on this in the future, I guess, just would like to get through today, may need to go back and rest...

long week...

Every day at Friends, did some good work, I feel, yesterday used strategy to help make transition from
seventh to eighth period., and it was effective.  Stayed for Basketball game, tired, went home on the subway with jen, good conversation---like most days of the past week, easily asleep after that---some feeling of discomfort in throat area, came home and was met with a blast of gaseous air from the cellar, hope things will be all right. Today, torn between rest and interesting things to do. Just found out about play at Incubator
Arts; might be good this evening. What about "The Little Fugitive" at Film Forum, never saw it as a kid, sounds like it could be meaningful---will probably follow my body on this, kind of tired, should check in
with Bob and La Flaca at some point, havn't seen he or Daniela in a while. So far, two possibly three days
of work at Friends next week---should have some time to do taxes---if I don't work on Tuesday, if will be first day off in three weeks (unbelievable!). Anyway, let the day move on......