but Ron has....

canceled his NY's day party for the second year in a row! Somewhat relieved, will not have to stuff myself now---but how to spend the day....? Will miss the shmoozing with Laura. Well, there is always Pizza at South Fourth. Will probably go there Saturday night then go to Bob's but maybe I will do it backwards. Or maybe something else will come up.
Spent the day with Lenny, Leslie and Dorothy yesterday---lots of fun and good feelings, Dorothy still full of memories, nice to share---Lenny had some interesting things to say about the money crisis---anyway, really enjoyed myself, hope to continue contact and maybe hang out with the two of Billy's kids who live in the city. Tonight, trivia at South Fourth with Kim, hopefully it will happen, then on to........

cupcake at the...

beane--newly reopened on 3rd street and second ave. Stuffed myself---amazing how my stomach simply rebels against all that sugar---probably won't eat until 5 today, was it really necessary---what about the monster walk of yesterday, down Broadway to Union to Marcy, back to Washington in Fort Greene---yes, an amazing walk, but those walks get you so tired, that it kills all evening activity. So I returned to La flaca, where I listened to Aimee's adventures, and marveled at her dad's committment to her mother, for over fifty years. Sometimes I feel all that takes place on another universe. And you, cityboy...? What does the weekend hold for you. Thought I would try to stand for Other Desert Cities tonight, but not sure. Other options, enough to read for the next few days...christmas day...a lonely time in the city. Atleast Reservoir will be opened at night. So many options....perhaps just will let it all happen......

trivia was....

exhilirating---really; left a very strong feeling of energy with me---today, am feeling very open to things, very positive, wanted to go to Brooklyn early, but seemed to be too tired, I think the second piece of Pizza that I cribbed from Chris was a little too much. But other than that, had a great time. Today, well will probably go back to south fourth for the short story adventure, then head over to La Flace to talk theater with my buddy Zack. Then....maybe visit Erin (is she there, maybe she went home for the holidays) at Lady Days, or....who knows.......

a calm has....

settled over cityboy in the last two days, it is the calm of someone "accepting his fate", that is, knowing that when Friends reopens, there should be work for me, but that there may be some peaks and valleys, that I had not expected. Still, rather calm and relaxed today, as the mid-afternoon appears. Tonight will go to South Fourth for trivia (I hope they have it) and maybe tomorrow I will tour Brooklyn for the short story reading and visit Erin (in between a visit to Zack) at Lady Day's Ah, bars, bars, bars, what else is life for, at this point in time. Speaking of which, I should find out if Black Swan will be open on Sunday....also should call Lenny and Leslie in Freeport tonight, see about visiting them and Dorothy, funny how it seemed to drop from my mind until this moring, but defiitely should make a visit during this time. Got money thing almost figured out, just a question of how much I want to spend now. All right, cityboy....later!

where have you been.....

cityboy; well, a lot has happened: six days of work, a better understanding of my place at the school-a decent monetary outlook---two weeks (atleast) of rest with no options for other work.
Just finished Wendy Wasserstien biography----moved, saddened, but wonder if there would have been any place for me in her world. Saw her a few times at plays, she never seemed distant, but I never said hello. She lived very much in a world of high achievement and "success". And you, Cityboy? Interesting how all the trips you made around the city, the few times you visited projects to tutor, the harshness that you challenged yourself to endure as a sub---all of this seems negated by the "achievement" of Wendy and her peers. But wasn't that what was supposed to happen? And the "gut oriented" work that you do, why does that make you "inferior?" Maybe Wendy would have admired me and the work that I chose; maybe I would have been totally dismissable to her. Can't say.
Anyway, let's get on (or try) to get on with the rest of it. Meeting Carolyn for a one man show tonight---after that.....?

difficult time....

almost thought I had it made when I went down to Court Street, thought that perhaps they might renew my sub licence right away....fat chance! Was told that I had to start all over again. From where...? Woman at the desk told me in a flat, empty tone, when I left I thought, "what an Edgar (from King Lear) moment! Well, still here, back in Manhattan, will spend the rest of the day (and night) roaming around to my "spots"....otherwise, not much else. The early morning....palapable...hard to get through, will make resume this weekend, anyway, feel more upbeat right now...up to the challenge, will get through....