so much has happened....

in the past ten days---trip to Baltimore turned out to be very good, really wanted to go there---walked endlessly, memories really came back, but I think that turned out to be cathartic (what Do I mean.....? more on that later) what is my relationship with the city....? Meanwhile, back in NY, have not done much but sub, tutor and sleep; interesting offer made to me by Katie at South fourth street about writing for her Bartender site, should I do that or should I see movies, can I do both...? Today on the subway, going to Chelsea's house, saw a black woman yelling at her baby, who was obviously frightened, lots of people on the train, could have gone over and said something---didn't, do not feel to good about that---easier to fantasize being a non-conformist among my generation, but then again, you spend very little time with those people anyway. Where to from here......might have some rest the next two days......Possible..?