that I have not even posted since late May. Well, that figures--so much has happened politically that I suppose my personal feelings are a bit irrelevant. I had wanted to post yesterday morning--to talk about Prosperous Fools at TFANA, but some how the connection did not come through. It does now, and I am not at the same place as I was yesterday---why? Because yesterday was "difficult", you might say. So, this morning, as we approach 6 A. M., I am still dealing with the after effects of this previous "difficult" day as I wait for 7 A.M. to make an appearance so I can visit the new coffee shop on Amsterdam, where they give me free coffee--it is very strong---good, but I wonder how it will work for my body in this heat. Why have I become the recipient of the coffee shop owners largesse? Not sure---when they opened I came in often and raved about their coffee---maybe this is a way of thanking me---then again---maybe this is because I am "old", (I don't like to use that word) and they feel it is their duty to give me a break. But anyway, they are there, and, I guess I will check in with them as soon as they open.
Yesterday was diifficult because the body was tired---that usually happens after a trip to Brooklyn the day before, or the day after some strenuous activity. Also, money is running low as I wait for my SS haul to come in, and the strategizing that I have to do to as I gage what to spend with money and what to put on my credit card take some emotional toll. Also, it was structureless, and that usually tires my body a bit. Spent a lot of time in the apartment---some reading, much lying around and "dialouging" with the body to determine what is possible. Many movies around he city are tempting, but did not feel I had the energy to sit through them. So I remained in the apartment and just let things happen until I feel asleep. Some good conversations with a few of my fellow apartment dwellers, so that made me feel better.
Finally, let us talk about books. There are many in the library that interest me---English history which I have always loved, and a few novels---but I avoid taking them out. When I read now, I have discovered that I absorb the content in a way that I have not previously. Every reading experience becomes a "deep dive", So sometimes I see a novel or history that might interest me, but instead of taking it out, I reject it--as if I am shielding myself from some experience that I might "lose myself" in. How long will this continue? Well, next weekend is the long one---the 4th---and the libraries will be closed from Friday through Sunday, so I think I will challenge myself to take one or two books that really excite me. Books that I can lose myself in can get me through a long weekend---we will see.
