tough night...

strange and disturbing dreams, several times in the eveing--one about rooming on the East SIde---not sure how that ended up, then the last dream: I am in a bus going into a tunnel with a steep glide, the bus is not slowing down---the glide seems to be getting steeper, suddenly a group of cyclists come at us the other way, we (I may be now driving a car, not sure) run them down, they fall like cardboard---finally a series of cars all  directly coming at me in my lane---what will happen---collision possible---I wake up!
Obviously, not in a great mood after that---took a while to get out of it, now better, again some tutoring this afternoon, have to make more specific plans than yesterday, which turned out kind of bland---well, I was kind of tired---so went to Kill Your Darlings---not a mistake---the movie kept me occupied---but not a great movie; just went out of convenience---like those Lincoln Center theaters and just missed the Noam CHomsky movie by Michael Gondry---could have come in slightly late, but thought that this movie might be a bit heady, preferred something with more narrative energy---certainly got it with Kill Your Darlings---afterwards settled for Pizza and some eating at home---avoided bars in neighborhood, thought they would turn out to be sterile experiences, still might have given one a try, just to see what the ambiance was. Well, cityboy was physically tired.
Anyway, as usual plenty of choices after tutoring, but don't run home citboy---be Brooklyn bound where barista Austen waits patiently for you to arrive (sure!) After that.....

better today...

the day after Thanksgiving---good time yesterday in Prospect Heights with Cara, Annie, Kayla, Stan and the kids----can't believe I have been going to that Thanksgiving party since around 1991! Today, not sure, after tutoring session with Kyla in the early afternoon. After that, it will be free time for the rest of the weekend.
But what does that mean? Should I go out and "hang" at my spots, South Fourth or Cobra or try some new places---adventurous, but often it ends up with my sitting alone. Plenty of room to ramble among the bars in
Brooklyn tonight. Still, there are plays, movies, even operas that I should catch up on. Woke up this morning, and felt the evening might be best spend listening to the three late Mozart symphonies at the Philharmonic. But this has changed, no longer find the idea so exciting.
Also, finally got into All That Is, James Salter's novel, find myself very intrigued by it, a very good read, look forward to doing a lot of reading of it the next two or three days.
So where does that leave us...? Not sure, perhaps will check in tomorrow...

so you were scammed last week and

sold a decent and truthful underperforming stock to see if you could find a stock ready to explode. Yes, it exploded, but right in your face, cityboy, and you are out about 100 dollars--of course you could easily make that back---but still at this time, with finances still very up in the air, not the greatest thing to happen to
your vision of yourself as as stock picker.
That said, yesterday turned out really well---great time at Friends, really great to see all the returnees, so many hugs, so many "up" feeling, I really love the place, even as they do create the 3 period half day, which has resulted so  far in my losing 100 dollars (sound familiar) still, even in this haze of anger that I am experiencing now, the energy and good feeling of yesterday afternoon was infectious.
Dentist appointment went about as expected---the flossist suggested I needed mor work, which would of course cost me more, but the Dentist deflected it---I guess they figure I can hoist on my own petard, not the greatest feeling, but it did cost less, and I got a real good cleaning.
After much deliberation, cityboy decided to get a standing room ticket for Die Frau, and found himself blown away. The whole experience left me breathless---god, what an orchestra sound---god, what an intense vision of an opera. Ran into Richard and Marcia there---good to see them and compare notes. Hope I can spend some time with them later in the month---still would like to describe more of the excitement I experienced at Frau, more to come possibly.
Rest of day, some tutoring, then not sure, may venture to Indian Road to sample their Trivia night, possibly go to south fourth to be "among friends" Will be determined as we go along.
Tomorrow the usual Thanksgiving with the Baum's, always fun--usual wait during the day, will cityboy stay home or try to find a bar with the football game on---there is still a lot of reading to do as well, remember it is expected to be very cold tomorrow, so movement may be inhibited. Let's find out....

so what is...

happening, today, have already bought much needed new shoes, then off to Friends for check and will probably stay for Thanksgiving Assembly. Then to Dentist (the money is there) and then....well again it is improvisation time. Only interesting Pinter movie at Lincoln Center is at 4:00, while I am getting my teeth cleaned.
Yesterday good session with my student Nyesa, then off to 145 street, an interminable wait for bus, then bus was stalled in traffic, finally got out at eighth avenue and walked (yes walked!) to 149nth and Brodway for a nice (somewhat overstuffed) BLT at Harlem Pub. Then Pub, which in the evening is usually filled, was pretty mellow, and though I did not speak to any one, I enjoyed the vibe.Will return, possibly at 2A.M. some time to see what it is like---CItyboy, can yous stay out that late, and can you take in anything at that time. Well, it sounds interesting---rest of the day will be decided by how I feel after dentist....

the quote was printed...

some nice feedback from my friends, it is also on my facebook HOME page.
Yesterday. the two coffee shops, hung out, had fun, some good conversations--got home early too tired to see Zach's project at Galapagos.
Long night----feeling strange today, emotionally tired, physically everything seems to be going through my stomach--should buy some pepto bismal---tutoring this afternoon at 3 on fifth and 139 street--not sure after that--tomorrow, if there is no work will pick up check, see Thanksgiving Assembly, get teeth cleaned, and then.......

cityboy is....

what...flustered, because he can't tell if his comment will be printed in tomorrow's second section of the NY
Times. That is certainly on his mind, but what of the last two days. Two basically good days at Friends, amazing how many good relationships exist there for me. Still, a long and tired night yesterday, leading to today, after tutoring session at library near Lincoln Center, will meet Sybil for a short coffee, then go to see Assembly's Reading at NYTF. After that...? Possibly Invisible Dog, maybe something else, then tomorrow, a cold cold day, will cityboy continue his travels between the two coffee bars he frequents and intereacts in on Sundays?
Thursday night, waiting on the rush ticket line of the Public, ultimately got off the line, could not conceive of myself seeing one of those plays. Why? Too much like circus imagery---everything coming at me. Not sure of difference between one or the other. Also tired, although I only subbed one period, (still a fun period).
Anyway, returned home listened to Mozart on the radio...will see how today progresses....

cityboy is...

over the top! So much seems to be happening in so few minutes. Where to begin? Stock I bought yesterday which moved up quickly seemed to explode downward today, taking my money with it,,,now has stabilized, so no catastrophe...but for a moment.....two tutoring sessions today, then.....another jaunt to Bronx Documentary Project in South Bronx...? That would keep things interesting.
What about that Times recollection, will it appear on Sunday or thereabouts.
Everything else kind of frenetic at this point...not much happened yesterday, good session with tutoree Nyesa on Monday, followed that by trip to Lansdowne Falls, the bar that is impersonal but has great bar-waitress people, got a chance to talk to Sinem, the vivacious bartender who had (along with her twin sister made a
nice commercial for Discover Card, very well placed, whoever thought of using the two twins was very crafty, and they looked incredibly poised on screen. No other voyages....rest of the day waiting for tutoring, let it all happen....

a crazy day...

for cityboy, first he is asked to sub for middle school, when he is already subbing for one teacher on a shorter schedule, then his first student cancels, tired, but must wait for second student---now sits in library.
Fun weekend, another Saturday evening that ends at  Brazenhead, impersonal bar where not much happens to you, still lots of room on a Saturday evening---if basketball was on you would have had a better time, yesterday the usual rounds in Williamsburg and Brooklyn---had a good time with Harolow and Noah, basically a productive day, with a scary stop around Myrtle Avenue when you got off the bus a little early, and confused Myrtle el with Broadway el. Can wonder around that neighborhood for a long time. How much time before it gets cold, anyway, let's get on with the rest of the day....

Is that you....

cityboy. He goes down to Transition center on Canal street to speak his peace about better education in the poorer schools. Makes the video, but Oy! Is that what you look like? Face is kind of old, isn't it---not anywhere near your vision of yourself, but still perhaps the vision will win out! Nevertheless, dissappointing to see an old man's face---can't possibly be yours, cityboy...this vital, energetic being that moves from place to place, nevertheless, people seem to find me attractive, per se---so where do we go from here...?
Last night, went up to Harlem for Maysles Cinema showing of Continuing Ed, fascinating film about trying to teach poor students---high school founded on compassionate principal, doesn't always work needs some pruning, nice way of me coming to terms to with my own vision of myself as a teacher of poor children.
Very important movie, like My Brooklyn, LIke Zoned Out from several years ago.
Today, after tutoring Kyla, probably go out to Brooklyn to visit Austen, this will be hard to negotiate, since L train does not run into Brooklyn at all this weekend, same goes for tomorrow, on my journey to South Fourth---so there will be a need for inventiveness as we use the other trains and buses to move around, and of course on foot, just took a nice walk (today is a beautiful fall day!) from Canal to Leroy Street and body seems to be working well, after two days of being fairly tired.
Tonight, Debate Society work in progress, wonder if I will meet anyone there I know, should be a number of
"usual suspects" in the audience, afterwards not sure if I will go out or what.
Monday, back at Friends for at least a half a day.....

cityboy is...

tired...physically, that is---after two long days at work and also tutoring yesterday---returned home around
7, out like a light, woke up, as usual, around 2, lots of energy---stayed up around two hours, then back to sleep, then woke up with "nothing in the tank". Happy no subbing today, though i don't know when the next day will be, no advance commitments, still, plenty of tutoring and a decent amount of money in the bank---making things palatable for the next few weeks. Today, not sure, would love to do some moving around, but am I able to do so...last day for Frederick Wiseman's doc about Berkeley, should catch it, but not sure...looking forward to the weekend...

last two days....

extremely busy, with school, did not expect to tutor at all, but had one on Thursday, and one on Friday, also
FUREE meeting on Friday as well---did not expect to feel as strong as I do today, but I do. Also, leak from radiator and excess heat in apartment---no response so far---well I guess that is par for the course.
Otherwise, comfortable with all situations, will sub at least two days next week, and probably have a decent
amount of tutoring---that should keep me comfortable. Not sure about the rest of the day...many options, that is if no water in the aparment....

today...calm....

body very relaxed at this moment===next two days (actually 4 out of 5 at this point) will be at Friends. that's good. Today, should be relaxed for the two tutoring sessions I have one with Michaela at 4 :30 and one with Terry's daughter (first time) at 5:30.
Yesterday, finally visited La Flaca, saw Bob for the first time in a while, things seem to be good for him and the restaurant, very nice to touch base with him and rest of La Flaca staff. Stopped off for coffee at Bean before heading home; read a little and finally returned. Today woke up at usual time, waited to see if I would work---kind of relieved that I was not called, not overwhlelmed by today's tutoring schedule. After that...?

and yes, today...

is totally "free'---a little bit at loose ends, will cityboy finally catch up on a movie? Where should he be tonight, at another art event, following the election, watching the two basketball games at La Flaca, possibly?Just wrote a nice statement on franklin avenue blog, wonder if I can take this idea any further---feel it is important. But why has no one thought of it before.
Yesterday, two tutoring sessions---tired at the end of it, tired through most of the day, but did okay.
Came home and slept---today....one the move, I hope.

how far can....

you go, cityboy? No subbing today, but two sessions of tutoring, including one in an unknown zone on
140 street and fifth avenue. Are you pushing things a bit, cityboy? No pay until 11/15, that will be sufficient, but until then you are still acting like you have to budget with a vengeance. Stale pizza yesterday, because of same? Woke up okay, then  slept a bit around 9, surprised that I was so tired, but that is the way it is. Two sub days planned, Thursday and Friday, perhaps more...?
Yeserday, traveled between my two "bars", South Fourth and Cobra---good conversations at all places.
Fun to watch football at Cobra. On way there, tempted to walk up Stuyvesant Avenue in Bed-Stuy, such a yearning to do so---but walked the south-north length of Willoughby in Bushwick instead. Good walk, lets felt strong. Not sure about tonight, tomorrow may be "free"...would not mind that, I think....

three days later....

cityboy is exhausted---three straight days of tutoring followed by three tutoring sessions in harlem, followed by sleep! Not much else---but seem to have stabilized finances for a while.Tonight will see Sibyl's play, late, not sure about the rest of the day, don't want to go on one of my monster walks---might be too tired for
late show---also still feeling kind of lethargic---seems like the body needs a day to recover from the intense work it put in over the lst few days. So what does that mean...? so far....nothing...? Tomorrow, have a little more financial flexibility than last Sunday, but amazingly enough, may do the same thing---enjoy making it my
"hang out" day, and now with those wings at cobra club on Sunday evening.....wow! Anyway, we will let it all play out....