played out.....

This is just what I feel, first day that I have not worked in a week, seriously long days at Friends for the past few days. And now.....well, Chelsea's dad called me to tell me that she is sick, so today's lesson is canceled. Luxurious time comes before me...no need to do anything---check out a movie....? Seems like an odd thing to do, probably will wait it out and watch baseball (baeball immersion!) tonight and then maybe the basketball game. Odd sense of exhaustion, both physically and mentally, don't want to do anything, but then feel a void so.....tomorrow Jen's birthday party, should be fun...everything else.......

today in

south bronx---another trip to tutor Jhennifer. Enjoyed the tutoring, but during the ride there by bus and waiting at the site where Southern Boulevard and Westchester Avenue intersect,conceived this short story---but can I write it? This was an old Jewish neighborhood in the early fifties, then began to change quickly....how quickly....how can one see the last Jewish person in the neighborhood, how can one understand the confusion, despair, fear they must have experienced by the arrival of the Puerto Rican community....Or did they.....? Only the tutoring brings me back, this is not like my trips to Brooklyn, far more pastorale....yes, the walk up New York avenue was great----stimulating, as were the other walks in Ditmas Park and around Boerum Hill, where Sarah lives. Today more tutoring this afternoon, tomorrow, relax a bit. Still, wonder if writing the short story is possible, the spring and summer could have some terrible and illuminating prospects....must live them through.......

what a ......

beautiful day---finally no tutoring or plans in general. So, I decided to just walk in Brooklyn. Got off the A at Nostrand, up to Pacific, then right on Pacific to New York Avenue. Pacific and Nostrand seems full of people, an urban essence of movement, but no sooner walking east between Nostrand towards New York ave, the brownstones become beautiful. Followed that by going up New York Avenue, a beautiful block, many brownstone streets up to Eastern Parkway betweem New York and the next Avenue, Brooklyn. Old synagogues, now churhes. Felt a sense of excitement on this walk, up to Eastern Parkway then down to the Library at Grand Army Plaza, still not hungry. After this...not sure, probably walk some more,at some point I would like to get to Cortelyou Road, what about watching sports.....? Maybe later.