long night

after seeing Geometry of Fire, returned home, rather then visit any of my "hangouts" Body felt tired, atleast that is the message I got. Slept around 11:00, but then awoke around 12:45. full of enregy. What to do? Decided to sit on it, as my stomach was still recovering from Thanksgiving. Could have gone for a beer, instead, around 1:45 when I did go out, settled for a quick walk and a muffin from West Side Market, and then home to tough it out. But was that right? Constantly holding back? Can't do that again tonight, too difficult. Meanwhile, I wait for Monica to assure me that I will be subbing on Monday at Friends, and wonder why my money has been withheld by unemployment. Proud of the way I handle my budget, probably no one better, but still......., always inside and outside, two different worlds. Will promise to keep myself out a little later tonight, must, really, even if the cost be a little greater. Will go to Williamsburg, probably sometime after the play at the public. Movie? Maybe, how much art goes for one day, then again........

a nice.....

time at the Schwarz-Baum's yesterday for Thanksgiving---both girls, Jessie and Molly are extremely perceptive and fun to interact with. Ate a lot--still stuffed from yesterday; wonder if I will eat at all today---also tutored Martha---alejandra's little sister in the Bronx-also lots of fun. Wonder if Monica will finally have jury duty on Monday, I assume she will, if not.....no word on why I did not receive benefits from NYS this week-will probably not find out until next week if at all, but will file on Monday. Two plays atleast for the next two days, maybe one movie---I should see Rachel's wedding this weekend, because I probably will not have the timea after that....otherwise, things seem to be going nicely

Baltimore....how...

i love being there. Saturday through sunday morning------left because the cold made it hard to move around---as it turns out it was good that I did---since I found out I was not subbing for Monica at Friends, and got the job for one (2!) days at Bensonhurst. Found myself exhausted after working at 163, but really enjoyed being there and being with the kids. Teachers seem familiar with me, even if in the last two years I have been there only a few days (but in 2004-05, and 2005-06, was there very often) Afterwards, had to tutor Chelsea, so began the long and incredibly grueling ride to the Bronx--D from Bensonhurst to 125; walk two long blocks to Lenox and then the 2 to Bx Park East. Glad I am not working today, so the trek will be a lot easier. Tomorrow, I will see if there is some interesting work for me at a decent school to sub in, but probably will be on my own.
As for Baltimore, Robin says that there will be a guest room available in her house soon, so maybe an extended stay is a possibility. Would love to take a couple of days to really wander around the place. That's all now

yesterday and today

yesterday, went to South Fourth, had a nice time with Jimmy, then off to the library on Leonard Street, took Lorimer Avenue bus to Fulton and Franklin---walked to my bank, which is on Fulton between Bedford and Nostrand---then up Nostrand to Eastern Parkway, back to Washington to have lunch at Tom's---really great coffee! Hungry most of the walk, however, was able to make it anyway. That evening terrible Fourposter---what is the point in reviving something like that anyway.....? but a strong meal at Ollies accross the street---woke up this morning at the usual time (2A.M.) feeling very strong, continue to feel strong for most of the day---but oh, the wait...! turned down atleast one job I might have taken because I could not have tutored Chelsea, then gone to Friends to see the play and also subbed at this school because the job apparently lasted until 5. The result is that somehow I feel incredibly restless----constantly have to justify to myself that things might be necessary to receive warmth from chelsea and the kids at Friends. Still, all this time makes me feel raw, probably because it is too cold to walk, and I am trapped in Manhattan. Tomorrow at Friends, as well as Monday and Tuesday---spoke to Robin last night, she is looking forward to having me come down on Saturday, and seeing the play. Also it will be nice to say hi to Deborah Hedwall. Virginia Woolf again....what does that mean---also, memory of Fourposter, seeing my parents come back with a program, probably about 51, or 52. This has settled me a bit---let's see what happens......

so I did.....

return to Brooklyn, saturday evening and sunday---saturday evening had fun---somewhat---the encounter with Sarah---a little penetrating, but is that so bad......sunday first hanging with Mark and Annie at Heights Cafe, then on to the bank on Fulton, between Nostrand and Bedford (can we remember that for future reference?) and then to Bedford and fulton to wait for the bus, finally the only one that came was going to Flushing avenue (I, ofcourse was gunning for Williamsburg) so even in what seemed to be cold weather, walked from Bedford and Flushing to South Fourth---long, but I was able to do it--hope there is some tolerably "fall" weather remaining so I can do some more exploring around Brooklyn, still have not taken that 14 bus, that actually goes into Brownesville---would like to do that---anyway, yesterday worked for Glenn Arena, a little out of it because I could not contibutet in math, but enjoyed a brief encounter with the 10th graders----no work at FRiends today, gave up a chance to work at NEST high school---seemed to me at that time I was very tired, certainly don't feel it now, probably had to do it anyway---I guess---a little ahead financially, finally but how will that play out on the trip to Baltimore.....later.....

three days later.....

worked yesterday for Rochelle, had some good talks with the kids, tomorrow and Friday also at Friends. Still, having trouble sleeping normally....would like to go to the Shalimar workshop tonight on Wall Street...will really try...so do not want to feel tired when I leave the bronx after tutoring Chelsea. Want to return to Brooklyn...but when......?

too much...

bought an hour of time at the computer shop this moring, and am already running out of sites to visit. Great day to go to the theater, only I am tired and trying to keep the money down. Still, some interesting things on Audience Extras, will have to skip for now. Yesterday watched Howard's son's team play football in the grueling rain---actually enjoyed it---great sightlines to watch an interesting game from---but from standing and holding umbrella for a long time, I am tired, hardly know if I will go to Williamsburg after this, though I should. Fun, as usual to travel though the Bronx. Still have no idea about work these first three days---nothing at Friends, yet, until Thursday's marathon for Frank and Chris Doire. Saw Fifty Words last night--last performance, actors exhausted themselves, but the play, though it has parts that are well written, seems now to me to be more of a stunt---too contrived, goes through too many contortions.
Read a beautiful passage in Curtis Sittenfeld's American Wife this morning, on the 1 train. This is certainly the best novel I have read in a long time. Passage is about memory and the choice of lovers....speaking of which.....anyway, will stay home toninght around 5 to see what DOE offers me, if nothing from Friends has come in---though I might enjoy just finishing Ms. Sittenfeld's book tomorrow........

spent a lot......

of money yesterday---funny, as I wasn't very hungry yesterday morning, but after finally making some plans for the afternoon-early evening, saw movie Synedoche--unbelievable, I got nothing from it, absolutely nothing. Charlie Kaufman fanciful, but here, really told a story about an unbelievably boring guy, surrounded by unbelievably boring people. Felt cheated, but atleast the time went by----then had a great piece of pizza off orchard street, then met Joey Gilford and girl friend and chatted with him a bit, still hasn't gotten his play on, it is really good, but probably does not "sinc" with the agenda of major not for profits in ny. That is the way I see it---then off to South Fourth, good, if short time, Julianna, is ofcourse, warm and friendly, a few others were interesting, then moved on---thought it was time to explore Stain---love the atmosphere of the place, but since they were just finishing up a poetry reading, not much for me to do except read, no conversation to be had, and that is really what I am there for, right...then wandered over to Lorimer---found a 24 hour hummus place on Lorimer and Grand, great to know....right--you can always take the subway out there at 2A.M. some morning and lounge on coffee and hummus--that should make for a great evening in the burg! Then, believe it, back to 119, hooked up with Howard, told him I would attend his son's game at Fordham, soon it is off to the boogie-down Bronx for me, some adventure before the game, anyway, tonight the other Weller play...and then.........

long week.....

4 days in a row at Friends, including two when I went to the Bronx afterwards to tutor Chelsea....phsically very tired. Feeling rather strong in other ways......Kindness turned out to be a very strong play, and then it was good seeing Adam at 119 on Tuesday, and then catching up....can he really be 40....amazing....! Not sure what I want to do for the rest of the day.....tomorrow pretty set.......so let us see what will come about...short post......

far more relaxed....

on Saturday morning--perhaps the whole week has been so frenetic, that now I can only feel that I got my bearings. A really good idea to see Cymbeline, last night. Really interesting play, perfect location for me, two blocks away, no exertion, and actually, the play was done pretty well; the group of six actors worked very hard, and got most of the points across. Next week, three long days (atleast) at Friends, but atleast tomorrow, I can be where I want to be. And where is that...? Not quite sure, though I will try to visit with Layla tomorrow at Bembe in the early evening. Will see Adam's play this afternoon----should be some feelings there, say hello to Ray and possibly Annette. Anyway, a little looser.......