Thursday.....

Really great day yesterday at Friends, can't wait till tomorrow, left there feeling very up relaxed about spending today off---that's good, on Tuesday, returning home from tutoring Chelsea, read thes second story in Ms. Lahiri's collection; very strong, I was totally moved by it; it is a perfect example of structure that is strong, and feelings that are meaningful. I don't know how exactly she does it, but her insight into loneliness, sex, etc. is teriffic. After tutoring Lena, simply went to the park (Bryant) watched the baseball game on the big TV, and wondered home, stopped off at Playwrights Tavern to have a beer, but was pretty put off by the place, a surly bartender and not really anyone to talk to...but you have to try it. Rest of the day after tutoring Chelsea not clear, possibly South Fourth, or maybe Sound and Fury, so much to do, so little........

Miss Lahiri"s.....

Miss Lahiri's short story brings up a lot of feelings for me; moody, lachrymose, beautifully articulated...also about family and age....what happened last night? Collapse, both physical and yet seemingly emotional, overwhelmed by what.....? choices, an enormous walk through Fort Greene and some of Bed Stuy-----anniversary of.....? Still, recovered nicely this morning, met Yulia, collected my fee, had an interesting conversation, now an interesting walk---later ball game and cookout, and finally....? the play, or maybe it will be better to watch Mets vs. Marlins---subway ride to Juniors, in last car of the R train---just one other person and myself......other things....what?

spent the morning.........

at Heights Cafe; nice meal, Annie there, conversations with Danny and Mark et. al; nice to see Nancy again; she really is a good person---then the walk across Fort Greene, the bus ride down Bedford, and the landing at South Fourth, more good conversation, watching baseball, but you know what, I am played out, tired, need a release, does this mean I should check out a play, maybe a movie, here is where it gets complicated...(or atleast by definition. I am sure life is far more complicated for others) fun at theparty at TEAM, but everythng ends........

last night and this morning....

just got a rush for Sunday in the Park---finally decided to see a play---good for you, cityboy! Tonight the party for the TEAM---gonna be fun---the rest of the weekend, who is to say...?
Memorial day here so soon again, the first weekend of the summer-still tremendous changes this year---I think!
Yesterday after tutoring Chelsea, had to fight with myself not to get off at 174 street and either walk around, or take Boston Road bus to 149 street, but did get off to switch to 5 train, and my eyes followed Boston Road south---amazing--could have closed my eyes and imagined the early fifties, the all Jewish neighborhood---whenever I travel feel that need to explore the whole Bronx, Brooklyn, whatever---anyway, the day contiunes and we will see what happens.

feeling satisfaction

nice and easy today, going to be warm, and I will be going to the Bronx to tutor this afternoon, felt a sense of luxury about the weekend, after tutoring I will probably go to South Fourth, after that, who knows, may spend a lot of time there...the party on Saturday night should be fun, after that.......plenty of time to cruise around, if that is what I wish to do.

annoyed......

Cityboy missed another interview; that is what you get for not having a computer, but maybe we can work it through for tomorrow, anyway, wish that I could go there now and do the interview, rather than use the computer, but....sort of impossible at this moment. Other than that, I was feeling good, sort of like doing nothing today, letting it all air out---possibly a movie, now I even feel blocked about that, will go to meeting of subs this afternoon, then maybe a movie or back to South Fourth---oh yes, had a good time there last night, might go back again, and slept fairly well last evening, no cold impediment, think that that is over----anyway, we will see...maybe more clarity this weekend, cityboy.

angry at.....

froze last night, even if we got heat in the early evening-----now feeling okay, but still a slight head ache which I think is from that----should I call again and ask that heat be atleast put on slightly for the early part of the morning? So passive when it comes to that...then received a call from Humana asking me to join their drug program....feel like I am being exploited...so here I am. But other things are good---seems like there will be lots to do this weekend; wonder if I will see any plays, or whatever----city seems odd, constantly reading about people with no money, spending less and less, but at the same time, everything seems crowded...where do you go with that? Later at South Fourth........

saturday....somewhat annoyed....

A little frustrated, I guess by the appointment of Diane Paulus as head of ART, but really what do you expect? Lighten up cityboy, then read about Emily Mann's version of Seagull at Princeton, something I could certainly see-----sounds interesting, if they got it right...well so many things to check out, have to go slowly, huh cityboy---what else, a couple of more days at Friends---a lot of ideas going through my head...still not sure about this evening, what about that Rosemary Woods play...? Possible...? Otherwise, just might stay at South Fourth or the baseball bar before visiting with Bob and Harold.......

easy day for

an easy day (today, Wednesday) for cityboy, with only two classes. Well, I guess you deserve it, since you worked hard yesterday and the day before. So what else is new? Not much, invited to the middle school concert this evening at Friends, but don't think I will be able to go---I am supposed to tutor Lena at that time----was interviewed by marielle T. yesterday---my recollections of the tenor of the times of the "sixties", the anti-war fervor---counter culture whatever---sad, to see what it has turned into---and how little power I have to change it---still, it is nice to know one can give the best of oneself to people. Tutoring tonight probably means that I will see Frank's piece tomorrow----that should work out, also might have a free day tomorrow, is that possible....? first in six days, wonder if I will really make use of it...still debating as to whether I will go to Washington DC over the memorial day weekend, plenty of reason to go, but still, enough to do around here, and then it also depends on how much money I earn next week---unanswered questions galore....anyway, we will continue.......

worked hard....

worked hard on Friday....yesterday, most of the time at South fourth, then said hi to Bobby and Henry at their respective watering holes---today, pretty tired, visited and hung with Patrick at south fourth, pleasant--then the B61 to vanderbuilt and park, and then the vanderbuilt ave bus to the library. Three days in a row (short) at Friends starting tomorrow---moving towards Memorial Day, kind of amazing---good conversation with Nacho yesterday, and great to hear Leo play at the concert Saturday afternoon. Couldn't stay for Brahms second---much too heavy for the early afternoon, also acoustics for Church great for small orchestra, but a bit too heavy for the Brahms. Body in a kind of torpor....see what the rest of the day will bring with it....

in ten minutes....

I begin five classes in a row. Busy, busy, huh cityboy. What else since Tuesday? Well. lots of energy---saw Camelot last night, woke up thinking about it today, still very much a part of my past---can' shake it---this weekend, innumerable things to do (and bars to visit) in NY. What will cityboy do? Can't say--well, better prepare for work..........................

three days later....

Tuesday---the one day of the week with no subbing---and strangely enough I feel played out, sort of empty---annoyed at the lack of structure---oh well, tomorrow, plenty of work---yesterday at the tutoring for Chelsea, interrupted by two black kids who wanted something from Kevin, Chelsea's older brother, aged 11---I chased them away---very forceful, but was nervous that they might confront me afterwards--did not happen--still, should I have to tutor under those circumstances? And then there is Chelsea, herself, she is becoming more manipulative--and I feel there is less that I can teach her---less that she wants to absorb----last night, went to Standings after the tutoring, okay, but no one to react to---maybe should have gone into Brooklyn:
Sunday, after taking that incredible bus trip through Tompkins Avenue and after that New York Avenue, I arrive on New York and Eastern Parkway---land that I might have been raised in, had my parents taught in Brooklyn---think about the play that I might conceive (write is too "pompous")that would take place in two time frames----think about taking that trip on the Brooklyn 16, the one that would actually take me through Brownsville and East New York. Would that really free something in me? Should it be necessary?
It is at moments like these I become obsesses with "the journey" and the values of my generation---and what that engenders. Still can't get off the 2 train, and explore Bob Rosenblatt's old block, but would like to...see where all this goes...today later into Williamsburg---definitely!

cityboy is....

tired...after yesterday's five period adventure at Friends. What next? Well, let's face it---you are in the maelstrom, cityboy, and you have got to ride it out. Your job, your life, is revolving around Friends, and whatever you are too tired to do afterwards, or whether you are just too played out afterwards, is just too bad. But actually quite exhilirated by all the work, and the upcoming marathons as well. Today canceled one tutoring session, then the other tutoree called in sick. So here I am with time on my hands, but not that interested in running to the Tribeca Film Festival---think I will just take it easy---find some poems for John's class on Monday, and finally go down to South Fourth for the late afternoon---kentucky derby energy---perhaps Dafna will meet me there; she might enjoy having the place to hang out. Tomorrow, still too much to do; may go from South Fourth to city museum---sound interesting....? we'll see.....

better yet....

Wednesday morning at 6:A.M.,; no work---planning on a (not so comfortable) no work week. But Sarah S. calls at 6:40, asking me to take two of her classes, by the time the day is over, I have four more days---so things are looking up. Much more relaxed, huh cityboy? Plus, let's face it---you really like having structure, simply don't want to deal with the "Rawness" (for want of a better word) of not working. Anyway, "celebrated", if that is the right word for it, by going to City Ballet, celebrated Robbins with an all Balanchine program. Recognizable, but basically enjoyed it, no hanging out after that...now back at Friends for a two period day, with the rambunctious seventh graders, then off to work with Chelsea, then perhaps, South Fourth.